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Odd thoughts that cross my mind, part one of... one? two? to be decided?
Often, when someone says something mean to me or is mad at me, I consider what it would be like if I committed suicide right then. How would that person feel if their last words to me were, "It's none of your business," or "Whatever" or anything else that an uncomfortable conversation could hold? If I'm in a place where it's viable, sometimes I'll actually exit the situation and ponder it further. If I go up the the fourth floor, there's a crossbeam over the space where there are no stairs for 5 stories. If I had a rope and knew how to do up a 13-ring noose, I could do that. Where could I get the rope? Would Target carry it, or would I want to look elsewhere? How thick should it be? Obviously, I've never gone beyond the theory. But just imagine how much that'd fuck someone up.
Often, when someone says something mean to me or is mad at me, I consider what it would be like if I committed suicide right then. How would that person feel if their last words to me were, "It's none of your business," or "Whatever" or anything else that an uncomfortable conversation could hold? If I'm in a place where it's viable, sometimes I'll actually exit the situation and ponder it further. If I go up the the fourth floor, there's a crossbeam over the space where there are no stairs for 5 stories. If I had a rope and knew how to do up a 13-ring noose, I could do that. Where could I get the rope? Would Target carry it, or would I want to look elsewhere? How thick should it be? Obviously, I've never gone beyond the theory. But just imagine how much that'd fuck someone up.