the vegan boys dream girl. (raheem)
I fuck everything up.
I broke up with her for her benefit. and it fucking backfired in my face.
then i called her to make sure shes ok... and that fucking backfired too...
wow im shit.
I fucking miss her so much.
my other half.... is gone.
i want her now.
why can't i hold her.... why can't i kiss her... and touch her.... i miss her.
She's better off without me. I'll just drag her down further than i have before.... i feel sorry for her... all the shit i put her thru... no wonder she was so fucking miserable.
i miss her.
and i hope she's ok. and taking care of herself.
i love her.
fuck im so dumb.
why can't i be normal.....
and succeed and have what i desire the most....
why can't i have her. and she be happy...?