reflections...
So I got rejected from something I really really wanted
And it shook me up,
a lot.
I think part of the reason it hurts so much is that I've always been brought up to believe in (somewhat thanks to PV) a meritocracy, where efforts = results, and those who deserve things get those things. The college admissions process has to be one of the most unfair things I've ever experienced and I'm not bitter about it, just realistic, and I know that later on in life I will learn this lesson time and time again.
It's hard to know you gave 100% and that it was not enough...but I think what really matters is what you do after a setback like that.
WARNING--IF PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT RELIGION BOTHER YOU, DON'T READ ON.
haha.
Not many people know this but I'm an extremely religious person. I try not to show if off or throw it in people's faces because I think it's a very personal thing...if it works for you, fine, it doesn't work for everyone and I'm fine with that too.
I think some things in live can never be fully explained except to say I believe God has a plan for everyone and knows what is in everyone's best interest. Human nature (for me especially) is to take a very shortsighted view and only care about the things whose effects can be seen directly. We cannot see our futures, nor should we attempt to predict our futures. I really hope this was all part of the "bigger picture" and it takes a lot of faith to trust that things will work out the way they were meant to be...it's not a cop-out, just a sort of acceptance that things truly happen for a reason. I believe in destiny and I believe that nothing is ever random. God chooses to intervene in certain situations where He/She sees fit, and just because we can't always figure out the reasons for why things happen, does not mean we can assume things happen for no reason at all.
END OF RELIGIOUS STUFF
So all I can do is hope that I will be happy next year wherever I am, and that I can learn to put this past me and move on and pick myself up and not stare so long at the door just closing that I don't see the doors that are opening for me. Often the most significant learning experiences in life are the ones that hurt the most, and this one hurts. A lot.
But I am incredibly lucky to have so many people in my life who see me more than just a statistic or someone bound for a particular type of college...they know me for who I am, and things like where I get into college don't matter in the least to them. And keeping those type of people in my life is all I could ever really ask for.
And it shook me up,
a lot.
I think part of the reason it hurts so much is that I've always been brought up to believe in (somewhat thanks to PV) a meritocracy, where efforts = results, and those who deserve things get those things. The college admissions process has to be one of the most unfair things I've ever experienced and I'm not bitter about it, just realistic, and I know that later on in life I will learn this lesson time and time again.
It's hard to know you gave 100% and that it was not enough...but I think what really matters is what you do after a setback like that.
WARNING--IF PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT RELIGION BOTHER YOU, DON'T READ ON.
haha.
Not many people know this but I'm an extremely religious person. I try not to show if off or throw it in people's faces because I think it's a very personal thing...if it works for you, fine, it doesn't work for everyone and I'm fine with that too.
I think some things in live can never be fully explained except to say I believe God has a plan for everyone and knows what is in everyone's best interest. Human nature (for me especially) is to take a very shortsighted view and only care about the things whose effects can be seen directly. We cannot see our futures, nor should we attempt to predict our futures. I really hope this was all part of the "bigger picture" and it takes a lot of faith to trust that things will work out the way they were meant to be...it's not a cop-out, just a sort of acceptance that things truly happen for a reason. I believe in destiny and I believe that nothing is ever random. God chooses to intervene in certain situations where He/She sees fit, and just because we can't always figure out the reasons for why things happen, does not mean we can assume things happen for no reason at all.
END OF RELIGIOUS STUFF
So all I can do is hope that I will be happy next year wherever I am, and that I can learn to put this past me and move on and pick myself up and not stare so long at the door just closing that I don't see the doors that are opening for me. Often the most significant learning experiences in life are the ones that hurt the most, and this one hurts. A lot.
But I am incredibly lucky to have so many people in my life who see me more than just a statistic or someone bound for a particular type of college...they know me for who I am, and things like where I get into college don't matter in the least to them. And keeping those type of people in my life is all I could ever really ask for.