well...
Apparently I got out of the habit of updating. Eeeeeeek!
Just random entries.
So here's a real one I guess.
Week 7 of the quarter and I am seriously suffering. No, my classes aren't that hard, and I absolutely adore my french professor and the class in general, but things just haven't been easy lately.
My science class is absolutely infuriating. I don't know if I've ever had a worse professor. I imagine I will be able to get the "C" I need for the class to transfer to OSU, but this guy makes things hard even though they are easy. I know that doesn't make much sense. This man can barely speak coherent sentences in english...and doesn't know what he's talking about. He's a math professor teaching a natural science class that focuses on the history of science - so it involves aspects of anthropology, philosophy and basic history. None of which he knows a fucking thing about. And it shows. The students in the are almost entirely complete morons or pompus 18 year olds. Picture me, the second day of class, listening to someone ask how you go about harvesting rocks from the sun so you can find out how old it is. Seriously. That was actually said. Harvesting rocks from the sun...yes, please go find out so you will explode in flames and I won't have to listen to stuff like that anymore.
Speaking french again is so much fun though. I am dying to actually learn how to speak it this time around. My professor is amazing, and knows how to teach the material. I look forward to it every tuesday and thursday.
I am so tired and down...all the time. I am uber worried that my meds aren't working. Gotta get things checked out. Of course, I can't get an appointment to see my dr. till Nov 27th. Yep, back to the old guy after Dr. Brandemihl had to change where he worked for the millionth time. Every year the arrival of winter scares the shit out of me. Last thing I want to do is get depressed again.
I've been going to what used to be Sawmill athletic club and working out. Working out at curves isn't really cutting it for me any more. I had pretty much stopped losing weight (granted the way I am eating is not helping at all) and every time I went into work, it was like I still had to be "on". If other women are there working out, and I arrive, they are used to the me who works there - the one who is always perky, wants to chat, all that jazz. Not my choice at this point. The workout isn't really intense enough anymore - or maybe my heart isn't in it as much. Either way, these new work outs are awesome. I bring pinky pod (cause every ipod needs a name), listen to my podcasts and music, and I run. Yep...Bryanne is actually running. Well...more of a jog, but just the same. I have *never* in my life been able to run/jog/whatever. Whether it was from just being the chubby kid all my life, or being terrorized by a sadistic elementary gym school teacher, or just plain being out of shape, who knows. However, now I'm working on it. I can go 1/2 a mile without stopping. It may not sound like much, but for me it's a huge accomplishment. Yesterday Brian and I went together and I ran a total of a mile over the course of my 2 some mile workout. 1/2 mile and then two single laps. My goal will be to eventually get to the point where I can run a mile straight. That is the day I will celebrate, and perhaps finally vanquish the demons of the beast that was Jeri Stephen (the evil gym teacher).
Elizabeth Merkel's belated baby shower was Sunday. Yeah...Eric and Louise - did you know she had a FREAKING BABY!?!?!? It blows my mind. It was really a "grandma shower" for Monica, hosted at my parents house with all the usual suspects from the neighborhood friends. Yep, Elizabeth Merkel is married with a baby...the girl who I remember showing me her new tattoo in high school that read something along the lines of "sex goddess" in some foriegn language. She seems to happy, and looks beautiful and seems to be adjusting to being a mom. It's so crazy though...
American Idol re-run on tv. Blake Lewis is amazing...I am still obsessed. I downloaded his new single off his upcoming album - Loves it!
The Blue Jackets are miraculously off to a good start. It makes me so happy I can't even express it. Two road games coming up this week. I hope we can win at least one of them.
My dad turns 59 on Thursday. My parents getting older really scares me. I'm going to have to be an adult sooner or later and this just proves that. I love my parents to bits...I'm so lucky.
I'm also very lucky to have a wonderful Brian to come home to every night. He listens to me on days like today when all I can do is whine, and he always has something comforting to say.
I love you LOML...thank you for putting up with me, and making the hurts and worries go away. I don't know what I would do without you.
Gah...much longer than I thought this was going to be. I am very stressed and down, but it doesn't change the fact that I feel so fortunate and loved.
Happy Halloween Mo'Fo's!
Just random entries.
So here's a real one I guess.
Week 7 of the quarter and I am seriously suffering. No, my classes aren't that hard, and I absolutely adore my french professor and the class in general, but things just haven't been easy lately.
My science class is absolutely infuriating. I don't know if I've ever had a worse professor. I imagine I will be able to get the "C" I need for the class to transfer to OSU, but this guy makes things hard even though they are easy. I know that doesn't make much sense. This man can barely speak coherent sentences in english...and doesn't know what he's talking about. He's a math professor teaching a natural science class that focuses on the history of science - so it involves aspects of anthropology, philosophy and basic history. None of which he knows a fucking thing about. And it shows. The students in the are almost entirely complete morons or pompus 18 year olds. Picture me, the second day of class, listening to someone ask how you go about harvesting rocks from the sun so you can find out how old it is. Seriously. That was actually said. Harvesting rocks from the sun...yes, please go find out so you will explode in flames and I won't have to listen to stuff like that anymore.
Speaking french again is so much fun though. I am dying to actually learn how to speak it this time around. My professor is amazing, and knows how to teach the material. I look forward to it every tuesday and thursday.
I am so tired and down...all the time. I am uber worried that my meds aren't working. Gotta get things checked out. Of course, I can't get an appointment to see my dr. till Nov 27th. Yep, back to the old guy after Dr. Brandemihl had to change where he worked for the millionth time. Every year the arrival of winter scares the shit out of me. Last thing I want to do is get depressed again.
I've been going to what used to be Sawmill athletic club and working out. Working out at curves isn't really cutting it for me any more. I had pretty much stopped losing weight (granted the way I am eating is not helping at all) and every time I went into work, it was like I still had to be "on". If other women are there working out, and I arrive, they are used to the me who works there - the one who is always perky, wants to chat, all that jazz. Not my choice at this point. The workout isn't really intense enough anymore - or maybe my heart isn't in it as much. Either way, these new work outs are awesome. I bring pinky pod (cause every ipod needs a name), listen to my podcasts and music, and I run. Yep...Bryanne is actually running. Well...more of a jog, but just the same. I have *never* in my life been able to run/jog/whatever. Whether it was from just being the chubby kid all my life, or being terrorized by a sadistic elementary gym school teacher, or just plain being out of shape, who knows. However, now I'm working on it. I can go 1/2 a mile without stopping. It may not sound like much, but for me it's a huge accomplishment. Yesterday Brian and I went together and I ran a total of a mile over the course of my 2 some mile workout. 1/2 mile and then two single laps. My goal will be to eventually get to the point where I can run a mile straight. That is the day I will celebrate, and perhaps finally vanquish the demons of the beast that was Jeri Stephen (the evil gym teacher).
Elizabeth Merkel's belated baby shower was Sunday. Yeah...Eric and Louise - did you know she had a FREAKING BABY!?!?!? It blows my mind. It was really a "grandma shower" for Monica, hosted at my parents house with all the usual suspects from the neighborhood friends. Yep, Elizabeth Merkel is married with a baby...the girl who I remember showing me her new tattoo in high school that read something along the lines of "sex goddess" in some foriegn language. She seems to happy, and looks beautiful and seems to be adjusting to being a mom. It's so crazy though...
American Idol re-run on tv. Blake Lewis is amazing...I am still obsessed. I downloaded his new single off his upcoming album - Loves it!
The Blue Jackets are miraculously off to a good start. It makes me so happy I can't even express it. Two road games coming up this week. I hope we can win at least one of them.
My dad turns 59 on Thursday. My parents getting older really scares me. I'm going to have to be an adult sooner or later and this just proves that. I love my parents to bits...I'm so lucky.
I'm also very lucky to have a wonderful Brian to come home to every night. He listens to me on days like today when all I can do is whine, and he always has something comforting to say.
I love you LOML...thank you for putting up with me, and making the hurts and worries go away. I don't know what I would do without you.
Gah...much longer than I thought this was going to be. I am very stressed and down, but it doesn't change the fact that I feel so fortunate and loved.
Happy Halloween Mo'Fo's!