I've wanted to vid this song for years. Since around 2010, before I even knew how to vid. It was going to be my Companions Getting On With Life Post-Doctor vid. But I never made it, and anyway
odessie ended up making
Survivor, which is not only a far better Companions Post-Doctor vid than I could ever hope to make, it is also one of my absolute favourite vids of all time, and if you haven't already seen it you ought to stop reading this and rectify that IMMEDIATELY.
Seen it? Ok then! SO, having discovered that someone else had made the Companions vid of my heart to a different song, I still had If I Ever Leave This World Alive knocking around in my head. And pretty much as soon as Jodie was announced
I realised what this song was really about. It was so perfect. And I had to wait for MONTHS to be able to make it. Woe.
I made 99% of it in a mad rush in the few days after Christmas, and had a full timeline (and MANY FEELINGS) by the 30th December. Then I just kind of...stopped. Partly due to disillusionment (there are Shiny YouTube Vidders out there who somehow had astoundingly beautiful, emotional, and technically brilliant Regeneration vids up by like the 27th December. I wasn't really sure why I was bothering with this, which seemed very boring in comparison) and partly because January is a long and dark and stupid month, and I hate it at the best of times, and these are not the best of times. So despite having mostly finished it, I didn't post it or do anything about it for weeks, except for a couple of days when I spent three or four solid hours obsessively poking it, only to emerge in a daze and realise that (a) it was 3am on a work night and (b) I had somehow only changed two clips in all that time. /o\
ANYWAY, blah blah blah vidding is a stupid hobby. Eventually Festivids happened and that kind of kickstarted me into actually wanting to vid again, so that's been nice. It's nice wanting to do things, isn't it? And there was also the increasing frequency with which OS update notifications are popping up on my screen, and I know that - much like with the Doctor and his regeneration - I can't put off the inevitable forever, and once I do update to High Sierra I will tragically no longer be able to use Final Cut Express, my vidding program of choice since 2012. I thought I had better finish this before I have to shell out for, and learn to use, Final Cut Pro. Seems an appropriate vid to end that particular era on.
Huge thank you to
shinyjenni who lent me a bunch of v useful DVDs for this, to
such_heights as always for saying nice things, and most especially to
elisi who was super encouraging and had many interesting thoughts, and a lot of patience.
If I Ever Leave This World Alive
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purplefringe fandom: Doctor Who
characters: Twelve, Thirteen, One (with guest appearances from Bill, Clara et al)
music: If I Ever Leave This World Alive by Flogging Molly
summary: Wherever I am, you'll always be / More than just a memory
content notes: Two bright white flashes at 0:39 seconds in
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Lyrics
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll thank for all the things you did in my life
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll come back down and sit beside your
Feet tonight
Wherever I am you'll always be
More than just a memory
If I ever leave this world a-alive
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll take on all the sadness
That I left behind me
If I ever leave this world alive
The madness that you feel will soon subside
So in a word don't shed a tear
I'll be here when it all gets weird
If I ever leave this world alive
So when in doubt just call my name
Just before you go insane
If I ever leave this world
Hey I may never leave this world
But if I ever leave this world alive
She says I'm okay, I'm alright
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would
Now everything should be all right
She says I'm okay, I'm alright
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would
Now everything should be all right
Yeah should be alright