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This is just all fucking bullshit...
i mean why do i even bother to try to make friends or even try to remain friends and just hang out with them when i know in return they dont care for me as much as i do them...
lajdflajsdfasdf FUCK!!... you have no clue how pissed off i am... mainly because of one person... its sorta not his fault... its just that was the last straw of the day that pissed me off... that AND i cant get my fucking car out of the fucking parking lot cuz some dumbass blocked me in... -.-;....
Well here's what happened for today...
Dont get me wrong... i had an awesome time just hanging out with Matt and James... and staying the night there... (i'll put those events in another entry...)
Well today Matt and James wanted to go to Bayfest... so i agreed... cuz i hadnt gone in years... so yeah...
i was at james' just chilling and being bored so we decide to go to my house to drop off my stuff... and also i wanted to straighten my hair... since we had to wait on matt to get ready n e ways...
we go towards matt and we see braxton walking through the park... so we pick him up (he's blown... -.-:)... and head to matt's...
matt was supposed to meet his gf there but she never did show up... or even call(at least not when i was there... )...
so we head towards bayfest... and parking is a bitch.. so we end up parking in front of the old court house...
we stay in there for a while.. i think we got there about 7ish or so... but about 8:30 or so after walking around for a while... and not really wanting to stay there n e longer i mention to james that i wanted to leave... so we go find matt and tell him and looks all depressed... -.-;... and here's the last convo i had with them before i took off..
Me - "im ready to go... im sorta bored.. and i want to go get food..."
Matt - "you can get food here.... "
Me - "but i dont want food here... "
Matt - "well i dont want to leave yet... "
Me - "well im bored... "
James - "ill let y'all two decide"...
Me - "well i dont want to be here n e more... idk about you... "
and that's the point where i walked off... matt wasnt willing to compromise because he was talking to some brazillian chick that he knew or w/e...
psh.. w/e!!
so i start walking to where braxton and james were standing... and i was going to stop but then my emotions went haywire... so i decided to just ditch them like they've done to me the entire night... (not really James... for the most part... he was the only one that really talked to me... i felt out of place whenever they met up with their friends... and then of course they all smoke... -.-;.. i fucking hate it...)
so i start speed walking past them and all i hear is "alex!!.. where you going?"...
(you can tell at this point that they dont really care cuz no one bother to even come after me... i mean i wasnt even running... i was walking at a normal pace... if i was in that position where someone i knew just took off id run after them.. especially with all the weirdos around...)
yes i know it wasnt the brightest idea to just take off but i didnt want to cause a scene... i've just been in this emotional rut (or w/e you want to call it) for the past couple of days... everything just builds up... and this was the breaking point...
and you're prolly wondering how they are going to get home... well i pretty sure one of the ppl that they were hanging around has a car... the only thing im doing is when i get my car... to head to james' to drop off braxton's stuff and hopefully get my walkies... (that shall be interesting... cuz i know james is going to pull the whole "worried friend routine.." (i know he really cares... but at this point... i dont fucking care about n e one))
is it so fucking hard to find a good friend who wont ditch you or not include you in other groups... or someone that doesnt smoke/drink...
im prolly one of the few ppl out there that dont do n e of that shit... and im not going to...
so i guess this ends the matt & james phase of friends... i think i'll just stick to myself... at least til my bf comes back... i know i can count on him for n e thing....
well now im off to do random stuff to kill time while i wait for 1am to roll around that way i can go get my car...(why couldnt i just have a freaking monster truck?.. i could have just jumped the curb and drove on the grass and be on my way... )
i mean why do i even bother to try to make friends or even try to remain friends and just hang out with them when i know in return they dont care for me as much as i do them...
lajdflajsdfasdf FUCK!!... you have no clue how pissed off i am... mainly because of one person... its sorta not his fault... its just that was the last straw of the day that pissed me off... that AND i cant get my fucking car out of the fucking parking lot cuz some dumbass blocked me in... -.-;....
Well here's what happened for today...
Dont get me wrong... i had an awesome time just hanging out with Matt and James... and staying the night there... (i'll put those events in another entry...)
Well today Matt and James wanted to go to Bayfest... so i agreed... cuz i hadnt gone in years... so yeah...
i was at james' just chilling and being bored so we decide to go to my house to drop off my stuff... and also i wanted to straighten my hair... since we had to wait on matt to get ready n e ways...
we go towards matt and we see braxton walking through the park... so we pick him up (he's blown... -.-:)... and head to matt's...
matt was supposed to meet his gf there but she never did show up... or even call(at least not when i was there... )...
so we head towards bayfest... and parking is a bitch.. so we end up parking in front of the old court house...
we stay in there for a while.. i think we got there about 7ish or so... but about 8:30 or so after walking around for a while... and not really wanting to stay there n e longer i mention to james that i wanted to leave... so we go find matt and tell him and looks all depressed... -.-;... and here's the last convo i had with them before i took off..
Me - "im ready to go... im sorta bored.. and i want to go get food..."
Matt - "you can get food here.... "
Me - "but i dont want food here... "
Matt - "well i dont want to leave yet... "
Me - "well im bored... "
James - "ill let y'all two decide"...
Me - "well i dont want to be here n e more... idk about you... "
and that's the point where i walked off... matt wasnt willing to compromise because he was talking to some brazillian chick that he knew or w/e...
psh.. w/e!!
so i start walking to where braxton and james were standing... and i was going to stop but then my emotions went haywire... so i decided to just ditch them like they've done to me the entire night... (not really James... for the most part... he was the only one that really talked to me... i felt out of place whenever they met up with their friends... and then of course they all smoke... -.-;.. i fucking hate it...)
so i start speed walking past them and all i hear is "alex!!.. where you going?"...
(you can tell at this point that they dont really care cuz no one bother to even come after me... i mean i wasnt even running... i was walking at a normal pace... if i was in that position where someone i knew just took off id run after them.. especially with all the weirdos around...)
yes i know it wasnt the brightest idea to just take off but i didnt want to cause a scene... i've just been in this emotional rut (or w/e you want to call it) for the past couple of days... everything just builds up... and this was the breaking point...
and you're prolly wondering how they are going to get home... well i pretty sure one of the ppl that they were hanging around has a car... the only thing im doing is when i get my car... to head to james' to drop off braxton's stuff and hopefully get my walkies... (that shall be interesting... cuz i know james is going to pull the whole "worried friend routine.." (i know he really cares... but at this point... i dont fucking care about n e one))
is it so fucking hard to find a good friend who wont ditch you or not include you in other groups... or someone that doesnt smoke/drink...
im prolly one of the few ppl out there that dont do n e of that shit... and im not going to...
so i guess this ends the matt & james phase of friends... i think i'll just stick to myself... at least til my bf comes back... i know i can count on him for n e thing....
well now im off to do random stuff to kill time while i wait for 1am to roll around that way i can go get my car...(why couldnt i just have a freaking monster truck?.. i could have just jumped the curb and drove on the grass and be on my way... )