Well here it is
Matt and I broke up. Today has been the hardest, but I'm not changing my mind. I know this is for the best. I know I made the right dicision. Without a doubt in my mind I know this is what I have to do. I wasn't doing so good thismorning, but as the day has went on I've been more and more at peace with it. I'm glad, its just I have to have strength through the pain. I didn't realize it would be this hard, but I have to face it.
This weekend I made up my mind and I won't go back. If i do things will never change and I'll never jump out there in life. I have things that i want to do and places i won't go and I'll never do them with him holding me back. I have to take a hold of my life and finally let go. It doesn't mean that i don't love him, it just means that i can't take care of him anymore. He needs to learn to live without me and grow up to be a man without me. Maybe time will change us both and leads us back to one another.
I'm so relived deep inside, under all the pain and hurt. The people around me have made it easier. I will always love him no matter what, but there are things I have to do now without him. And i know how much pain I'm putting him through, but for three years all I've done is worrry about him and now its time for me to go out there and find out who I am. And i have to do that without him. I hope as time goes on he will see that I had to do this and it was just as hard for me as it was for him.
Well so start another chapter in my life and I like the way it's starting.
This weekend I made up my mind and I won't go back. If i do things will never change and I'll never jump out there in life. I have things that i want to do and places i won't go and I'll never do them with him holding me back. I have to take a hold of my life and finally let go. It doesn't mean that i don't love him, it just means that i can't take care of him anymore. He needs to learn to live without me and grow up to be a man without me. Maybe time will change us both and leads us back to one another.
I'm so relived deep inside, under all the pain and hurt. The people around me have made it easier. I will always love him no matter what, but there are things I have to do now without him. And i know how much pain I'm putting him through, but for three years all I've done is worrry about him and now its time for me to go out there and find out who I am. And i have to do that without him. I hope as time goes on he will see that I had to do this and it was just as hard for me as it was for him.
Well so start another chapter in my life and I like the way it's starting.