I FUCKING HATE THIS SHIT!!!
I just talked to Seth, I couldn't see him in person to tell him so he wanted me to just tell him on the phone, guess who pansied out of it AGAIN!!! FUCKING A! I hate myself! I'M A FUCKING BITCH! BITCH! BITCH! He told me that I should just give Jenna permission to tell him, but thats not her place to tell him, I SHOULD BE THE ONE, AND IN PERSON!!! But I fucked up and can't face it! What the fuck?!?!? He's being extremely patient and nice and trying to make me feel better, but I don't deserve a guy like that. HELL I DON'T DESERVE ANY GUY, I DESERVE TO BE FUCKING ALONE! I don't want him to be mad at me, but I deserve for him to be pissed at me and just turn around and say your not fucking worth it. I CAN'T EVEN TELL HIM ON THE PHONE!!! What a bitch I am! FUCK!