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once upon a time there was girl who fell in love with her best friend in highschool. There was the girl that she'd hung out with since jr high, who watched south park and said fuck all the time. they ran around singing limp bizkit and winning theatre competitions. She'd always told this girl that she was her best friend. And she was until C showed up. It's not that they stopped being friends, but she had something going on with C that the other chic didn't know until C transfered and the girl told her friend what really went down.
C was 5'4 38DD. She smoked crack, weed, and marlboro red 100's. she chased her ritalin with her tequila. She climbed out of her window at night and walk to the mall that was by her house. she fucked this one guy because he gave her the shit she needed when she needed it. she would climb back in her window at 6 am, put on her uniform, and go to school.
the girl who fell in love with her would get to school everyday around 7am. she would sit by c's locker until she got there. if c didn't show up by 8am she knew she wasn't coming and was probably too drugged up to get out of bed. so she went to the payphone and called c when she knew that c's stepmother had gone to work. she'd even call c in between classes.
she had a habit of cutting all over her arms, and was constantly smashing perfume bottles and using the glass to cut them up. she took codeine in multiples 20. c cut on herself too, but it was always her legs.
so somewhere in her relationship with c they started sleeping together. and c tried to run away to alabama cuz her step mother beat the shit out of her on a regular basis. she was only 15.
after that she realized that she loved another childhood friend. but this one was a man. well when she realized she loved him, he was man. they almost had sex once, but she blacked out. so he decided he would never take it there again. but he flirted with her for years and got possessive even when he had a girlfriend and had no rational reason to back him up.
somewhere in one of his relationships with a girl that went to a college near him, his girlfriend asked him to marry him and he said no. she asked him to move to boston with her, and he said no.
then his brother got some crazy idea in his head that he was in love with her. but she didn't see it till it was too late, because he was always the little brother. She didn't know what to do about it, because he looked so much like his brother. she loved him like she loved her little brother, but there was a sexual attraction as well because he looked like his older brother who she'd been in love with since she was 16.
she was really tempted to have sex with him, but she didn't.
so she falls apart for the last time, and takes a semester off. The older brother shows up and tells her that he's afraid she won't come back. she assures him that she is. he says to her, "this is my face. this is what it looks like, don't forget me." and for the first time in at least 4 years, he kisses her. and then he drives away.
so oneday while she's taking her semester off she gets an instant message that says that he finally got a full time job offer. and that he has moved to hawaii. and that he's reading the book she gave him. which, in his language, means that he misses her, because the closest thing to reading he gets is his book on halo.
so he's in hawaii, which means her man issues with him are over, because it's not like she'll be going to hawaii or that he'll be coming home anytime soon.
c married a man who treats her like shit and has two children by him. he has a child by another woman that was conceived while she was still pregnant with the first child. so technically, c has three children, cuz she takes care of the child he has by the other woman.
somewhere after him she almost married someone. but he didn't have the balls to say, i don't want to marry you anymore. he joined the military. he lied about it. but eventually he did end up going. he's stationed in warner robins. he calls her a little too much for her taste, but she's over that now. and if there is anything between them, it's going to be on her terms. and her terms no longer include emotion. the sex would just be sex.
the brother still thinks he loves her. but she knows she can't sleep with him when she's loved his older brother for so long.
so for a long period of time she did a lot of stuff because she needed to feel like she was the user instead of the one being used. but it didn't work. and she feels like joey adams lawrence in chasing amy.
C was 5'4 38DD. She smoked crack, weed, and marlboro red 100's. she chased her ritalin with her tequila. She climbed out of her window at night and walk to the mall that was by her house. she fucked this one guy because he gave her the shit she needed when she needed it. she would climb back in her window at 6 am, put on her uniform, and go to school.
the girl who fell in love with her would get to school everyday around 7am. she would sit by c's locker until she got there. if c didn't show up by 8am she knew she wasn't coming and was probably too drugged up to get out of bed. so she went to the payphone and called c when she knew that c's stepmother had gone to work. she'd even call c in between classes.
she had a habit of cutting all over her arms, and was constantly smashing perfume bottles and using the glass to cut them up. she took codeine in multiples 20. c cut on herself too, but it was always her legs.
so somewhere in her relationship with c they started sleeping together. and c tried to run away to alabama cuz her step mother beat the shit out of her on a regular basis. she was only 15.
after that she realized that she loved another childhood friend. but this one was a man. well when she realized she loved him, he was man. they almost had sex once, but she blacked out. so he decided he would never take it there again. but he flirted with her for years and got possessive even when he had a girlfriend and had no rational reason to back him up.
somewhere in one of his relationships with a girl that went to a college near him, his girlfriend asked him to marry him and he said no. she asked him to move to boston with her, and he said no.
then his brother got some crazy idea in his head that he was in love with her. but she didn't see it till it was too late, because he was always the little brother. She didn't know what to do about it, because he looked so much like his brother. she loved him like she loved her little brother, but there was a sexual attraction as well because he looked like his older brother who she'd been in love with since she was 16.
she was really tempted to have sex with him, but she didn't.
so she falls apart for the last time, and takes a semester off. The older brother shows up and tells her that he's afraid she won't come back. she assures him that she is. he says to her, "this is my face. this is what it looks like, don't forget me." and for the first time in at least 4 years, he kisses her. and then he drives away.
so oneday while she's taking her semester off she gets an instant message that says that he finally got a full time job offer. and that he has moved to hawaii. and that he's reading the book she gave him. which, in his language, means that he misses her, because the closest thing to reading he gets is his book on halo.
so he's in hawaii, which means her man issues with him are over, because it's not like she'll be going to hawaii or that he'll be coming home anytime soon.
c married a man who treats her like shit and has two children by him. he has a child by another woman that was conceived while she was still pregnant with the first child. so technically, c has three children, cuz she takes care of the child he has by the other woman.
somewhere after him she almost married someone. but he didn't have the balls to say, i don't want to marry you anymore. he joined the military. he lied about it. but eventually he did end up going. he's stationed in warner robins. he calls her a little too much for her taste, but she's over that now. and if there is anything between them, it's going to be on her terms. and her terms no longer include emotion. the sex would just be sex.
the brother still thinks he loves her. but she knows she can't sleep with him when she's loved his older brother for so long.
so for a long period of time she did a lot of stuff because she needed to feel like she was the user instead of the one being used. but it didn't work. and she feels like joey adams lawrence in chasing amy.