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"Someday you will ache, like I ache"
I had a dream about mike last night, and it made me realize this morning how much I miss him. He was my first love, and I still am very much in love with him, it's just lately I don't even mention him to anyone, or in anything at all. For awhile-I was trying to erase him from my mind, to see if maybe I could forget about him, but it's just not possible. It's like-part of me can't wait to get back to school to go to my locker everyday and see him standing there, and to walk down the halls and see him walking by me... but the other part of me doesn't want to go back and see him, because I know once I see him I will let him into my heart again, and it's not that he did anything to hurt me, it's just I let myself fall way too fast and hard, and it's been 3 1/2 years, and I still can't get him out of my heart. *sigh* I just wish I could forget about all my past loves. but... then again, all of them have paved the road ahead for the new people I will love, and they've all tought me in some way or another things that I should or shouldn't do the next time around, so for that- I guess I can't really let them all go. I have only really experienced true "Love" with 5 people in my life. and... right now, only... two of them are really in my life. :o( blah, I don't know why I am even talking about this right now, I guess I am just bored. I'll stop now...
blah, another damn survey! lol
~*BaSiCs*~
Full Name: Britanie
Nicknames: Brita, Bootsie, Faithy, Froggy, Lolita, LoLa, Blueberry Muffin
Birthday: 03/25/85
Age: 17
Sign (Chinese &Zodiac): ?? uh... Aries. heh
Sex: gurly gurl
Location: Lee, Mass
Height: 5'6"
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: brown
Shoe Size: dunno. lol 8 or 9 i think
Do you have any pets?: yes
Parents: yes i have them :o)
Siblings: yeah...
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope.
Do you have a crush?: don't I always? lol
What are your screen names?: dazedbtrfly17, xxfaithyxx, lolitaburrita
If you have a web page, what is the link?: http://photos.yahoo.com/bc/lolitaxoxolust
~*FaVeS*~
Food: anything fruity
Drink: water
Book: prozac nation, rain, the runaways, down a dark hall, little girl lost
Movie: when harry met sally
Candy: sixlets, jolly ranchers!
Gum: grape
TV Show: dawson's creek, real world, the road rules, sex and the city
Actor: john cusack, jake gyllenhaal, adam sandler, tom hanks
Actress: drew barrymore, samantha mathis, michelle pfiefer, jennifer jason leigh, christina ricci, ashley judd, sarah michelle gellar
Web Site: the grapevine baby
Disney Movie: the little mermaid
Video Game: mario bros
Soundtrack: the wedding singer, coyote ugly, donnie darko
Cartoon: rugrats, hey arnold, spongebob
Color: purple, black, pink
Music Artists: Fiona Apple, Garbage, Bush, The Beatles, Natalie Imbruglia, Avril Lavigne, Ashanti, Heather Nova, ....
Guy's Name: michael
Gal's Name: novali
Holiday: xmas
Magazine: seventeen, cosmo gurl, allure
Day: don't know
Music Group: Garbage, Bush, The Beatles
Place to eat: four brothers
Quotes: anything by drew or fiona
Season: fall
Shampoo: herbal essence
CD/Album: "Tidal"-Fiona Apple
~*OtHeR qUeStIoNs*~
Who are your friends? (name as many as possible): laura, angie, britt, jesse, joe, black, james, ellie, ali, shana, noel, gwen, lyndz, liz, sarah, kat, mike, john, amy, jen, ciara, gracie, jewls, lisa, ...
What are your hobbies?: writing, movies, music, drew, fiona, friends
What attracts you to the opposite sex?: eyes, lips, voice
How far have you gone?: eh lets not go there. heh
What do you want to be when you grow up?: actress/singer
Stupidest thing you have done?: liked robbie
What one wish would you want to come true?: to meet drew barrymore
Whats your worst habit?: being too emotional
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change?: my stomach, i want it like britney spears
How many buddies are on your buddy list?: 125
Do you want to have children someday?: maybe
Do you hope to be married one day?: yes, definately
What's your biggest fear?: pain
What really annoys you?: ignorance
What makes you happy?: drew, being pain-free
What makes you sad?: pain
~*ReLaTiOnShIpS &LoVe*~
How many relationships have you been in?: 3 mayb.
Have you ever been in love?: yes
How many times have you said i love you and mean it?: 5
Do you believe in love at first sight?: no
Do you believe in fate?: yep
Is it possible for a long distance realtionship to work?: yes
Has anyone ever broken your heart?: yup
Have you ever broken someone else's heart?: yeah :(
Have you ever cheated in a relationship?: never
Has anyone ever cheated on you in a relationship?: yup
Do you want to fall in love?: im in love already
If you could be in a relationship with anyone, who would it be?: jesse or laura...
~*Your Friends*~
Who are your friends again?: laura, angie, britt, jesse, joe, black, james, ellie, ali, shana, noel, gwen, lyndz, liz, sarah, kat, mike, john, amy, jen, ciara, gracie, jewls, lisa, ...
Who knows the most about you?: ang
Weirdest: lol... hmm, joe
Funniest: joe
Smartest: laura
Dumbest: none
Hottest: jesse, laura, mike
Best body: laura!
Best Eyes: mmm jesse :O)
Best Smile: laura and mike
Best Laugh: laura and joe
Best Hair: laura
Ugliest: heh, none. they are all beautiful :o)
Most Annoying: heh
Best to Hang Out With: emily
Most Outgoing: britt
Most Beautiful: ALL
Wish You Were More Then Friends: laura, jesse, mike
·x· The Crush Side ·x·
Do you have a crush on someone?: yes. five people. lol
How long have you liked him/her?: Jesse: almost 3 years, Mike: almost 3 1/2 years, Laura: about 5 months, Joe: about 4 months?, Black: 1 month.
Are you really over your last crush?: nope
Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?: nah
Have you gone out or had a crush on someone and totally regreted it later? hah yes way too many times
If you could go out with anyone in the world, who would it be? Jesse
How long do you want a relationship to last? forever, if im happy...
How romantic are you from a scale of 1-10?: 9
Have you been in love before?: three times
If so, how many times... and with who?: Jesse, Mike, Laura
Do you believe in fate?: yep
Who do you want to have sex with right now?: lol!! Joe :o)
Who turns you on the most?: Joe
Who turns you off the most?: none...
If you could be married to anyone who would it be?: Jesse
Who treats you the best?: Laura, Jesse, Black
I had a dream about mike last night, and it made me realize this morning how much I miss him. He was my first love, and I still am very much in love with him, it's just lately I don't even mention him to anyone, or in anything at all. For awhile-I was trying to erase him from my mind, to see if maybe I could forget about him, but it's just not possible. It's like-part of me can't wait to get back to school to go to my locker everyday and see him standing there, and to walk down the halls and see him walking by me... but the other part of me doesn't want to go back and see him, because I know once I see him I will let him into my heart again, and it's not that he did anything to hurt me, it's just I let myself fall way too fast and hard, and it's been 3 1/2 years, and I still can't get him out of my heart. *sigh* I just wish I could forget about all my past loves. but... then again, all of them have paved the road ahead for the new people I will love, and they've all tought me in some way or another things that I should or shouldn't do the next time around, so for that- I guess I can't really let them all go. I have only really experienced true "Love" with 5 people in my life. and... right now, only... two of them are really in my life. :o( blah, I don't know why I am even talking about this right now, I guess I am just bored. I'll stop now...
blah, another damn survey! lol
~*BaSiCs*~
Full Name: Britanie
Nicknames: Brita, Bootsie, Faithy, Froggy, Lolita, LoLa, Blueberry Muffin
Birthday: 03/25/85
Age: 17
Sign (Chinese &Zodiac): ?? uh... Aries. heh
Sex: gurly gurl
Location: Lee, Mass
Height: 5'6"
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: brown
Shoe Size: dunno. lol 8 or 9 i think
Do you have any pets?: yes
Parents: yes i have them :o)
Siblings: yeah...
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope.
Do you have a crush?: don't I always? lol
What are your screen names?: dazedbtrfly17, xxfaithyxx, lolitaburrita
If you have a web page, what is the link?: http://photos.yahoo.com/bc/lolitaxoxolust
~*FaVeS*~
Food: anything fruity
Drink: water
Book: prozac nation, rain, the runaways, down a dark hall, little girl lost
Movie: when harry met sally
Candy: sixlets, jolly ranchers!
Gum: grape
TV Show: dawson's creek, real world, the road rules, sex and the city
Actor: john cusack, jake gyllenhaal, adam sandler, tom hanks
Actress: drew barrymore, samantha mathis, michelle pfiefer, jennifer jason leigh, christina ricci, ashley judd, sarah michelle gellar
Web Site: the grapevine baby
Disney Movie: the little mermaid
Video Game: mario bros
Soundtrack: the wedding singer, coyote ugly, donnie darko
Cartoon: rugrats, hey arnold, spongebob
Color: purple, black, pink
Music Artists: Fiona Apple, Garbage, Bush, The Beatles, Natalie Imbruglia, Avril Lavigne, Ashanti, Heather Nova, ....
Guy's Name: michael
Gal's Name: novali
Holiday: xmas
Magazine: seventeen, cosmo gurl, allure
Day: don't know
Music Group: Garbage, Bush, The Beatles
Place to eat: four brothers
Quotes: anything by drew or fiona
Season: fall
Shampoo: herbal essence
CD/Album: "Tidal"-Fiona Apple
~*OtHeR qUeStIoNs*~
Who are your friends? (name as many as possible): laura, angie, britt, jesse, joe, black, james, ellie, ali, shana, noel, gwen, lyndz, liz, sarah, kat, mike, john, amy, jen, ciara, gracie, jewls, lisa, ...
What are your hobbies?: writing, movies, music, drew, fiona, friends
What attracts you to the opposite sex?: eyes, lips, voice
How far have you gone?: eh lets not go there. heh
What do you want to be when you grow up?: actress/singer
Stupidest thing you have done?: liked robbie
What one wish would you want to come true?: to meet drew barrymore
Whats your worst habit?: being too emotional
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change?: my stomach, i want it like britney spears
How many buddies are on your buddy list?: 125
Do you want to have children someday?: maybe
Do you hope to be married one day?: yes, definately
What's your biggest fear?: pain
What really annoys you?: ignorance
What makes you happy?: drew, being pain-free
What makes you sad?: pain
~*ReLaTiOnShIpS &LoVe*~
How many relationships have you been in?: 3 mayb.
Have you ever been in love?: yes
How many times have you said i love you and mean it?: 5
Do you believe in love at first sight?: no
Do you believe in fate?: yep
Is it possible for a long distance realtionship to work?: yes
Has anyone ever broken your heart?: yup
Have you ever broken someone else's heart?: yeah :(
Have you ever cheated in a relationship?: never
Has anyone ever cheated on you in a relationship?: yup
Do you want to fall in love?: im in love already
If you could be in a relationship with anyone, who would it be?: jesse or laura...
~*Your Friends*~
Who are your friends again?: laura, angie, britt, jesse, joe, black, james, ellie, ali, shana, noel, gwen, lyndz, liz, sarah, kat, mike, john, amy, jen, ciara, gracie, jewls, lisa, ...
Who knows the most about you?: ang
Weirdest: lol... hmm, joe
Funniest: joe
Smartest: laura
Dumbest: none
Hottest: jesse, laura, mike
Best body: laura!
Best Eyes: mmm jesse :O)
Best Smile: laura and mike
Best Laugh: laura and joe
Best Hair: laura
Ugliest: heh, none. they are all beautiful :o)
Most Annoying: heh
Best to Hang Out With: emily
Most Outgoing: britt
Most Beautiful: ALL
Wish You Were More Then Friends: laura, jesse, mike
·x· The Crush Side ·x·
Do you have a crush on someone?: yes. five people. lol
How long have you liked him/her?: Jesse: almost 3 years, Mike: almost 3 1/2 years, Laura: about 5 months, Joe: about 4 months?, Black: 1 month.
Are you really over your last crush?: nope
Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?: nah
Have you gone out or had a crush on someone and totally regreted it later? hah yes way too many times
If you could go out with anyone in the world, who would it be? Jesse
How long do you want a relationship to last? forever, if im happy...
How romantic are you from a scale of 1-10?: 9
Have you been in love before?: three times
If so, how many times... and with who?: Jesse, Mike, Laura
Do you believe in fate?: yep
Who do you want to have sex with right now?: lol!! Joe :o)
Who turns you on the most?: Joe
Who turns you off the most?: none...
If you could be married to anyone who would it be?: Jesse
Who treats you the best?: Laura, Jesse, Black