*Joe*
I can't take this right now. I feel like my heart is slowly breaking. I want to be with Joe soo bad, and I know I can't...because of Meaghan. :o( plus, right now I guess im with Jemel... but still, I luv Joe so much, and I can't deal with this. Sometimes it's almost like I wish I hadn't met him, cuz I feel like I can't go on without him now, and its crazy. Every second I just want to like be with him, and I want to fuck him... haha, and its weird because I NEVER want to have sex with anyone seriously, and omg I just want him so bad. oh-well tho, is up to him right now... and he pretty much doesn't want to be with me I don't think, so I guess I will just have to try and move on... I realized last night how much he really means to me when he was hurting himself, after I got off of the phone I was like crying so bad... I was almost going to like take a bus there, and help him if I could. I don't know what I'd do if he wasn't alive... that's one of the worst things to think about ever.
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