*Sadness comes back*

[purpledaze]

I feel so low right now... I just read Laura's journal, and about how Alex is moving to AZ and they are a family and everything, I mean I am so happy for her because I love her, and she is my best friend, but at the same time I can't help but feel a bit sad as well. I know I have no chance what-so-ever with her, and for that, I feel depressed... but I know that no matter what we will always be best friends for life. This past 10 days with Laura gone, has made me realize how much I really do need someone around whom I can talk to when things go wrong, or when something good happens. Alot of shit just happend with Joe, and he basically was "hurting" himself while I was on the phone with him because I talked to Meaghan and confronted her about how me and Joe were kinda seeing eachother, anyhow he didnt take that well, and niether did she... and to make a long story short, Joe was cutting himself because he said he though Meghan was going to kill herself. I was crying on the phone with him telling him not to do this, and basically, he didn't seem to give a shit about how I felt, and really... as of this point, I am over him in that sense. I will always be there for him as a friend, but nothing more... its just too much, and I can't deal with it right now. I just got off of the phone with Jemel(Black), and omg... I like him ALOT! he says that we are now going out! haha he's a cutie, he is comin over this weekend :o) YaY! lol. anyhow, I am gonna go to bed now I think. *also* I want to thank Angie for being there for me this past week, I love u hunny!
night all!

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