Cause aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint no one in the globe id rather see

[purpleberries]

I've had this song stuck in my head all the day.  It's the one which has the part with the chipmunk.  It makes me laugh I like it.  The house is empty again.  I'm so used to being the one leaving it.  If I had known that I might just have gone up to Dima's afterall.  Though he's apparently pretty busy so maybe that would have been a bad idea.  I guess the thing is growing up I just had such a full house all the time.  Like, I guess if I had been an only child i'd be more used to it but like if my parents left my sister was usually around to watch me till I was older.  Even when I was older my parents wouldn't leave for more than a few hours at a time.  So being in a consistently empty house is kinda weird.  I guess I don't like the thought that one one else is home.  It makes me uncomfortable.  I think thanks to that I've realized I can really never live by myself.  I mean I imagine if I subjected it to myself for long enough I'd get used to it.  But really, I mean why should I?  It's like I don't have to live alone.. I mean the added privacy is kinda nice, but it's nothing I mind going without.  I'm not all that much of a private person.

I just, I sit up waiting for someone to get home really so I can go to bed feeling comfortable.  I guess it's a bitch, my parents always made me feel so at home and loved now that they aren't around I at least need someone else in the house.  I mean, me and Amie don't get along all that well but it still makes me feel good that someone else is there.

...i'm so looonely... i have no booooody to call my own...