So begins...

[purpleberries]

I haven't written anything here forever. To be honest, I haven't been much inspired. For a while I was busy playing video games, then I quit that and still managed to keep pretty busy (too much tv actually), and I guess mostly I'm just busy. When I first got back from greece and was at home I took it easy for a little while. When I actually started working my life just suddenly got so hectic. I thought it was just me adjusting to things as they go. In a few more days/weeks or whatever I would adjust, time would return to it's normal pace and I'd go on my merry old way. The problem is, it doesn't. If I forget to call someone, I don't remember until a week later. And then I don't remember to actually call until another week later. I remember feeling busy in college, bogged down with studying or papers and managing the lab. To be honest, it was never more than a few days or a few weeks at a time. After a few days I always had time to myself. Time to waste, time to use as I want it. I mean I still do, I just took two weeks off. But the time just goes by faster now.

I guess all this is brought on by the fact that I'm moving out tommorow. I'm moving away from home. I can walk around my new apartment with a big smile on my face all I want, but it's still a little scary. Even when I lived in a house my senior year, I still had my mom propping me up. I knew it was a matter of time before I was going back home. Now that I'm moving out, sure I'll go back home, but it will never actually be home again. That isn't going to hit me for a while. I know, in two months, hell two years... I'm going to look back at this like it was yesterday. Sure I'll appreciate being on my own, but it all goes by too fast.

It is now I realize this is life, or my first taste of it. This is what everyone has been warning me about. Life comes at you so damn fast.