Urgh
The Parent, banned me from the computer but she's not home now so HA.
I was going to post a entry i wrote on Thursday but to be honest, I don't care enough.
I feel so numb and so tired and so low.
I feel like a wrong, horrible person who doesn't deserve the things she has, her friends, her family and her life.
Speaking of this I had a dream 2 night ago that continues moving and carrying on when i'm awake, i keep seeing the next part. I dreamt that I was in college and I slit my wrists but not hard, i thought I was fine and went out to the courtyard, i met my friends, but then felt weak, not realising why, but then Tasha saw some blood coming from my sleeve and took me to the side looked down my arm and then just, saying mothing took me to Charing Cross, then i fainted in the A & E department but could still hear Tasha talking to me telling me to wake up but I couldn't, she kept telling me but then after awhile I wouldn't, i didn't want to, then she got really angry at me, I couldn't take having her angry at me so even though i was still out cold I managed to tell her I was sorry. she heard me and told me that those weren't going to be my last words. "sorry Tasha"
hmm.
I was going to post a entry i wrote on Thursday but to be honest, I don't care enough.
I feel so numb and so tired and so low.
I feel like a wrong, horrible person who doesn't deserve the things she has, her friends, her family and her life.
Speaking of this I had a dream 2 night ago that continues moving and carrying on when i'm awake, i keep seeing the next part. I dreamt that I was in college and I slit my wrists but not hard, i thought I was fine and went out to the courtyard, i met my friends, but then felt weak, not realising why, but then Tasha saw some blood coming from my sleeve and took me to the side looked down my arm and then just, saying mothing took me to Charing Cross, then i fainted in the A & E department but could still hear Tasha talking to me telling me to wake up but I couldn't, she kept telling me but then after awhile I wouldn't, i didn't want to, then she got really angry at me, I couldn't take having her angry at me so even though i was still out cold I managed to tell her I was sorry. she heard me and told me that those weren't going to be my last words. "sorry Tasha"
hmm.