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I'm not quite sure what I feel right now. Part of me is really depressed. I'm not sure why. I've just been really down. I got my nails done today. That was nice. So an old friend called me today. He called and was so high he couldn't even speak right. I hate when they get like that. I almost got involved with all that, but I just can't do it right now. He asked where my best friend was, and then told me it was wierd that she was at home after I answered him. Stupid people. I'm supposed to go to church with dad tomorrow. I really don't want to, but the car lots are over there, so we're going to look tomorrow after church. I really hope I get something. I need a car so bad. I have to go to school on Thursday, and I still don't have a car. My books haven't been shipped for Spanish yet. That really sucks, because I have to be done in ummm...2 weeks! I have to finish an entire year of Spanish 1 in two weeks. That's really stressing me out. I think there's something wrong with me. I keep getting really cold, and I start shaking like crazy. I'm wearing 4 shirts and I can't stop shivering. It sucks. All of my muscles hurt, and I haven't done anything to them. I have shooting pain all the way up my back. I think I just need some sleep. I miss him again. At this point I don't think it's him I miss; I think I miss being able to call someone, or wake up to the message they left at 2 AM the night before, or cuddle, or or or. I'm so tired, but my mind is racing over nothing. I just keep finding more and more to concentrate on. I'm so nervous for this school year. I'm not responsible enough to juggle 3 AP classes, plus band, and a social life. There's just no way. I need good grades this year, I just don't know how possible that is. Well, I think that if I don't get under the covers soon, I'm going to start freezing over, so I must run. Plus, my eyes are drooping. Goodnight.