Whew!
Well, in a few hours it will be my birthday. And I have never looked so forward to a birthday in my entire life!
Do I have big plans? Nope. None whatsoever. Am I going to spend time with anyone? Nope. Just me and Charity. Luckily, these are my days off from work, so I will have no reason to even leave. I will only walk out the door tomorrow long enough to check my mail. My Mom will call and so will my children. Other than that, the phone should not even ring.
This is just a year out of my life that I want to get over with and forget. It was hands down the worst year of my life. It contains 3 of the worst days of my life.....October 8, 2002.....June 4, 2003.....and today. And several other assorted days that in conjunction with the ones mentioned would probably rank in the Top 10 of all time worst. I compare my life this year to an airport which has a major hurricane coming toward it.......lots of departures......no arrivals.
But, it is said that which does not kill us makes us stronger. Well, I am not dead, although I believe that parts of my soul are. But I can still look up and thank God that I am a stronger person today.
I have no idea where I am headed right now. But I do know that I will be just fine. The scars left on my soul from this year will be there for the rest of my life. And although I may not see the whole picture now, I will be better off for having gone through the adversity of the past 12 months. The scars will just remind me that I am a wonderful person with lots of life left. And it will be a good life! If no one wants to share it with me....so be it! It will be their loss, not mine.
So, Happy 42nd Birthday to Me!!!!!! It WILL be the BEST year of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do I have big plans? Nope. None whatsoever. Am I going to spend time with anyone? Nope. Just me and Charity. Luckily, these are my days off from work, so I will have no reason to even leave. I will only walk out the door tomorrow long enough to check my mail. My Mom will call and so will my children. Other than that, the phone should not even ring.
This is just a year out of my life that I want to get over with and forget. It was hands down the worst year of my life. It contains 3 of the worst days of my life.....October 8, 2002.....June 4, 2003.....and today. And several other assorted days that in conjunction with the ones mentioned would probably rank in the Top 10 of all time worst. I compare my life this year to an airport which has a major hurricane coming toward it.......lots of departures......no arrivals.
But, it is said that which does not kill us makes us stronger. Well, I am not dead, although I believe that parts of my soul are. But I can still look up and thank God that I am a stronger person today.
I have no idea where I am headed right now. But I do know that I will be just fine. The scars left on my soul from this year will be there for the rest of my life. And although I may not see the whole picture now, I will be better off for having gone through the adversity of the past 12 months. The scars will just remind me that I am a wonderful person with lots of life left. And it will be a good life! If no one wants to share it with me....so be it! It will be their loss, not mine.
So, Happy 42nd Birthday to Me!!!!!! It WILL be the BEST year of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!