Finally An Update
I haven't written in a while because I have not had anything really interesting to say. But I guess I do now.
Last week, I had to make an emergency trip to Alabama as my Grandmother had a massive stroke. Originally, they thought she was not going to make it, because she also had pneumonia. But they were able to get that cleared up, and her vitals have at least stabilized for now. But we are still in this "could go tomorrow, could be around for months" sort of limbo right now. So for now, I have come home, knowing that I might have to get right back in the car for that 650 mile trip back over there at any moment. Seeing her in that state was painful for me. She has no movement below her neck and cannot speak. She was able to nod her head on a few yes or no questions, but for the most part, she is out of it. As for me, I found it even harder to deal with. I was the person trying to be strong for everyone else.....being the person they leaned on. Trouble was that I didn't have anyone to lean on myself. Oh well, I have learned how to deal with that feeling a lot in the past 6 months. Sometimes I am ok....most of the time I am not.
The only real humorous thing about the past few days was me joking about attending my own "ex wives convention." 2 of the 3 were there, and I was reminded that #3 is not technically a member yet....lol.
And while I am on the subject of #3, I guess I do have another funny story. The quickest way to get to Alabama is to drive through the town she has moved back to. At first, I decided I would go a different direction, because I did not want to even be near that town, especially knowing that I would only be about 2 blocks away from her when I drove through. But, I was just needing to get over there and back as quickly as possible, so I decided I would go ahead and do it. On the drive over, I did not have the radio on and was just reflecting on lots of things. On the way back, I did have the radio on and the song that came on as I was just a couple of blocks away from her house was Green Day's Good Riddance. She was always one to try to find "signs" in things. How was that for a "sign"?.....lol.
As for other things, I keep thinking that my life is turning around. But every time I get my hopes up on that happening, something happens to bring me back down to earth. I am sure it will eventually....just wishing it would hurry up and happen.
Last week, I had to make an emergency trip to Alabama as my Grandmother had a massive stroke. Originally, they thought she was not going to make it, because she also had pneumonia. But they were able to get that cleared up, and her vitals have at least stabilized for now. But we are still in this "could go tomorrow, could be around for months" sort of limbo right now. So for now, I have come home, knowing that I might have to get right back in the car for that 650 mile trip back over there at any moment. Seeing her in that state was painful for me. She has no movement below her neck and cannot speak. She was able to nod her head on a few yes or no questions, but for the most part, she is out of it. As for me, I found it even harder to deal with. I was the person trying to be strong for everyone else.....being the person they leaned on. Trouble was that I didn't have anyone to lean on myself. Oh well, I have learned how to deal with that feeling a lot in the past 6 months. Sometimes I am ok....most of the time I am not.
The only real humorous thing about the past few days was me joking about attending my own "ex wives convention." 2 of the 3 were there, and I was reminded that #3 is not technically a member yet....lol.
And while I am on the subject of #3, I guess I do have another funny story. The quickest way to get to Alabama is to drive through the town she has moved back to. At first, I decided I would go a different direction, because I did not want to even be near that town, especially knowing that I would only be about 2 blocks away from her when I drove through. But, I was just needing to get over there and back as quickly as possible, so I decided I would go ahead and do it. On the drive over, I did not have the radio on and was just reflecting on lots of things. On the way back, I did have the radio on and the song that came on as I was just a couple of blocks away from her house was Green Day's Good Riddance. She was always one to try to find "signs" in things. How was that for a "sign"?.....lol.
As for other things, I keep thinking that my life is turning around. But every time I get my hopes up on that happening, something happens to bring me back down to earth. I am sure it will eventually....just wishing it would hurry up and happen.