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Have just realised that I haven't posted anything for five weeks. It's not like I've been busy. In fact the last month has mainly involved writing five essays, doing exercise videos in ill advised ways, hanging around the house and cooking. I have also done some more exciting things, such as going to my first football match, going to what could loosely be classified as a 'rave' and having a lovely weekend with Blondevous and also going to an amazing BBQ this week, involving salmon kebabs, rose and champagne.
I now have masses of time on my hands and three months to write a dissertation. It seems like common sense that I might actually want to start writing my dissertation, but instead I keep on spending loads of time doing little bits of reading, getting nowhere and finding something else to do.
I keep on getting stressed out about getting my first job and being a social worker and have been looking at jobs in the paper recently. Unfortunately everything that is not social work seems appealing. However I feel that I am really passionate about social work and that this procrastination is only natural.
I think I just need to relax, do bits of my dissertation and remember that after this summer I might pretty much be fully employed for the rest of my life. But it's hard to just relax when things feel uncertain. I went to a family BBQ the other day and helped set everything up, but as soon as the guests arrived I suddenly got all tearful and left, cos I was scared of getting tearful in the front of all the guests. I haven't cried in ages and it's been a while since I got like this all the time and felt incapable of doing things. So I need to make sure I can find distractions, but having so much spare time recently is not helping!
Am going to see Sex and the City this week, so that should distract me for a few hours, I've never been that into it, but I guess it will be good to see what all the fuss is about!
I now have masses of time on my hands and three months to write a dissertation. It seems like common sense that I might actually want to start writing my dissertation, but instead I keep on spending loads of time doing little bits of reading, getting nowhere and finding something else to do.
I keep on getting stressed out about getting my first job and being a social worker and have been looking at jobs in the paper recently. Unfortunately everything that is not social work seems appealing. However I feel that I am really passionate about social work and that this procrastination is only natural.
I think I just need to relax, do bits of my dissertation and remember that after this summer I might pretty much be fully employed for the rest of my life. But it's hard to just relax when things feel uncertain. I went to a family BBQ the other day and helped set everything up, but as soon as the guests arrived I suddenly got all tearful and left, cos I was scared of getting tearful in the front of all the guests. I haven't cried in ages and it's been a while since I got like this all the time and felt incapable of doing things. So I need to make sure I can find distractions, but having so much spare time recently is not helping!
Am going to see Sex and the City this week, so that should distract me for a few hours, I've never been that into it, but I guess it will be good to see what all the fuss is about!