I wanted to start writing in a journal again I bought a a4 Marvel comics notebook for that purpose but realised half of what I want to write I can't just in case Abdul sees it.
So am seeing if I actually keep up with it on here or if this is just one of those posts I make about twice a year.
Nothing has really changed since last time I wrote here I am still on heroin but I have cut down from nearly every day to every few days or till money completely runs out like today so I'm going to try and not borrow money off Alex (Romanian guy who lives with us), that gives me a week and a half before I get paid next.
I have been getting back into Art the last few weeks I hadn't done any drawing for over 10 years
I did this with coloured watercolour pencils its Jasmine (Disney Princess) as a zombie it isn't my original drawing though I copied it off an image I found in a Google image search.
And yesterday spent ages drawing Elsa and Anna from Frozen building Olaf when they were young not to happy with it though also it needs some colour
I also got some paints and few packs of pens and Crayola coloured pencils and my Wreck this journal turned up in the post the other day so will be fun completing that.
I'm really getting into Arts and Crafts I think because it takes my mind of all the shit in my life also its nice when you make something.
I was real obsessed with Rainbow Loom (Loom bands (little coloured rubber bands)
Initially because Shakeel showed me how to make a basic bracelet during one contact and after I went home I kind of got addicted making lots of different characters for Aleesha and Shakeel but now they aren't really interested in it Minecraft has took over.
Made me a bit sad because I spent hours creating the things I made for them but they are not bothered to much oh well Tim likes what I make so I make him stuff heres a bird I made him a few weeks ago It was crochet or loomigurumi
I have to have a think what to make next because I have huge boxes of bands still.
Dad came round today I wont see him now till October he is going to live in the Philipines in a fortnight with his girlfriend who is from there.
He is coming back in October to see my sisters baby she's due in August and is having a baby girl called Willow.
Me and Dad had an indian take out I think I have totally gone off anything indian I got chicken tikka but forced myself to finish it the roti was good though.
I think I'm gonna go watch Sundays Game of thrones episode and then go to sleep I did think about going to the gym tomorow but I should of gone to sleep earlier.
I need to start going regulary again because I have put on more wait I am 22 stone now which is bad.
To much comfort eating and not leaving the house because I got real low with my depression I was real suicidal again.
Anyway hopefully I will keep this journal going