a week...
tomorrow will be a week since it has happened. i am not sure on how to feel about any of this. i keep on trying to get some answers but have been unable to get any. but since all this shit has happened i have not felt any stress. i have felt relieved in a weird sense. but i have been feeling such sadness in the past two days. i cant explain it. i wish it was not happening but it is. i cant explain none of it. and it hurts. it hurts a lot. all i know is that i am crying for things i would never cry for. i cry for tv shows and just thinking about stuff. i cry about stuff i never use to cry about in my life. so who knows. i just know i am sad, confused, and hurt and.... i just wish i knew something. anything. it sucks being in the dark.
i came to socorro. my grandpa had a small retirement party. and next week he will be having another one. and tonight three friends of mine are going out to dinner and then to a bar. so let me see how this will work. especially since one of these friends has not talked to me in like four or five years. i really miss her friendship and we would still be friends right now if it were not for her significant other. i hope it all goes well tonight b/c of that. i hope it will be a good thing for me to go out. get my mind off of things. i need something like this....
purple
i came to socorro. my grandpa had a small retirement party. and next week he will be having another one. and tonight three friends of mine are going out to dinner and then to a bar. so let me see how this will work. especially since one of these friends has not talked to me in like four or five years. i really miss her friendship and we would still be friends right now if it were not for her significant other. i hope it all goes well tonight b/c of that. i hope it will be a good thing for me to go out. get my mind off of things. i need something like this....
purple