got a little more time.....
twenty more minutes but that is about it. it is just hard for the fact that i was actually getting somewhere with my feelings and i lost it with the two minute mark. maybe i will get it back again. who knows. fuck... this fucking sucks. now this is where my anger is hitting home. this is wehre i hate life. where i cant stand to be here or anywhere. and it all started just b/c i could not finish with what i was writing. or does it stem from so much more. fuck fuck fuck fuck. what the hell. ugh... i better stop writing now b/c i cant do this. there is too much anger and i just feel like screaming and i am in the library. maybe a drive will do good....................fuck