do not get to get on much....
wow so much still happening. i hate it b/c all it seems to be is bad news. bad things have been happening for the past two weeks starting with my grandpa and ending with my car. this sucks. i am tired of crying all the time. that is what i seem to be doing again. for the past few months all it seems to be is me crying. who knows. maybe i deserve it. or maybe...
right now at this moment it just seems that i cant deal with any of it. i do not feel strong enough to deal with anything. for example a co-worker got me so mad that i threw a mop at him. yea a mop. and the only thing that i regret is the fact that it missed him. and it actually felt good after i threw it. i guess i released some emotions.
i need..... actually i do not know what i need. i just know that my heart is breaking right now. really bad. and it is actually really hard to control the tears. i am so good at that. but i have sucked so bad.
when will it all go away.that is my question.
purple
right now at this moment it just seems that i cant deal with any of it. i do not feel strong enough to deal with anything. for example a co-worker got me so mad that i threw a mop at him. yea a mop. and the only thing that i regret is the fact that it missed him. and it actually felt good after i threw it. i guess i released some emotions.
i need..... actually i do not know what i need. i just know that my heart is breaking right now. really bad. and it is actually really hard to control the tears. i am so good at that. but i have sucked so bad.
when will it all go away.that is my question.
purple