long time no write.....
well once agian it has been so long that i ahve wrote in this. and i miss it. i do. i am trying to think of a way or figure out a way so i can have my computer back or at least have a new one. well actually that is the least of my worries.
i do not know what is going on with me. well for the most part no. one of my friends said it best the other night. she said "i feel like my life is spinning out of control and i do know how to get it back." it certainly fit me at the time. but i am not sure for now. it is just so hard. and it is not even like wehre i am living or how i am coming up with money either. it has nothing to do with financial situations or job wise. well maybe a little on the job things but not much. i am feeling very depressed and sad. i am feeling this way on a bunch of stuff.
1. my baby cousin is really sick. with her heart and stuff. it is crazy. for fourth of july weekend she was in the hospital. and the poor girl is not even two yet. she will be two in two months. but she is going through so much for being a little one. i miss the little ones so much. and htat is one of the main reasons why i would like to go back to visit socorro. but other than that no. i hate socorro. and there is too much family drama. i think some of it has to do with my so called depression. i really do not want to call it that. b/c i do not feel like i did when i was on medication. it is just more maybe loneliness. i do not know. it is soemthing.
2. there is soemthing else. but i really do not want to get into that at all. just b/c. i should but i have not. i kind of wrote about it in my own personal journal. i have been writing in that more often now sicne i do not ahve anything.
i kind of want to stop writing right now. i will write more soon later or tonight.... i promise.
purple
i do not know what is going on with me. well for the most part no. one of my friends said it best the other night. she said "i feel like my life is spinning out of control and i do know how to get it back." it certainly fit me at the time. but i am not sure for now. it is just so hard. and it is not even like wehre i am living or how i am coming up with money either. it has nothing to do with financial situations or job wise. well maybe a little on the job things but not much. i am feeling very depressed and sad. i am feeling this way on a bunch of stuff.
1. my baby cousin is really sick. with her heart and stuff. it is crazy. for fourth of july weekend she was in the hospital. and the poor girl is not even two yet. she will be two in two months. but she is going through so much for being a little one. i miss the little ones so much. and htat is one of the main reasons why i would like to go back to visit socorro. but other than that no. i hate socorro. and there is too much family drama. i think some of it has to do with my so called depression. i really do not want to call it that. b/c i do not feel like i did when i was on medication. it is just more maybe loneliness. i do not know. it is soemthing.
2. there is soemthing else. but i really do not want to get into that at all. just b/c. i should but i have not. i kind of wrote about it in my own personal journal. i have been writing in that more often now sicne i do not ahve anything.
i kind of want to stop writing right now. i will write more soon later or tonight.... i promise.
purple