WoW!!! I HAVE ONE FUCKED UP LIFE!!!
Long Long Long time since my last update... So yeah, any way some personal stuff then I will get to NeRo's NeWz... or review on the concert.. any who. Yeah right now I am trying to get over sum shit between me and a friend... I wont mention names but if u kno, then u do, its that simple. ANYWAY, its hard. I have been crying myself to sleep since the fight started. and I truely cant take it anymore, I am supposedly saying shit WHICH MIGHT I ADD,I WASNT aware of it till the fight started. Lizzie has been telling me to forget it that person isnt worth it. But if that person wasnt worth it, why do I feel as though I lost my sidekick. I mean, I dont cry like a lil sissy girl, but its one of those silent cries where, every one around u knows ur upset but ur always so silent about it. That u feel if ANYONE u were to open up to u had crashed and feel apart right in front of u. Owner tries so hard to kno whats wrong, but I cant tell him. I just cant let down my shield to anyone any more...
its bad enough when ur brother has been, threating ur moms life along with his own... yes thats right gravityman has sumthing wrong with him... Mom brought him to the pysch ward today when me and lizzie were at work. I didnt find this out till after work. I am so scared for my brother. I dont want to see him angry, or upset, or DEAD!!! HE'S MY LIL BROTHER!!!! I KNOW WE FIGHT AND SHIT. BUT I CANT LOOSE MY LIL BROTHER!!! IF I DID I DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO. i mean, we have been threw so much, our dad leaving us, my moms x-boyfriend raping me, my mom's exhusband beating my brother, him loosing the only father figure he knew, his scout leader...(stupid jack ass)and so much more. I wish I could do sumthing to help him. I really do. but I can only sit and watch as he keeps getting introuble in school, keeps hurting my mom emoitionly. No telling what he coulddo next. And thats what scares me the most. And most of u kno I only think fear is only a four letter word, but I can truely say I love my lil brother, and i AM scared to loose him. I guess its a love hate relationship but, I will always be here gravityman when u need some one to talk to. I LOVE U LIL BRO!!!
*wips tears away* now that I have cried AGAIN!!! concerrt was great. but I dont want to get into major details, spet. I met a lo, I hung out with Mike, Twinkie and Ben at the show and in line, with the lo I met. umm... Bailey and Shain followed "cleopatra" up to the show. It was great to see them again. FOREVER FAMILY!!! and Amber I wish u were there, just to make it even better. but I got to go get sum sleep. I have work in 12 hours. MMFCL to ya'll!! AND GRAVITYMAN DONT HURT URSELF I LOVE U!!!
~NeRo
its bad enough when ur brother has been, threating ur moms life along with his own... yes thats right gravityman has sumthing wrong with him... Mom brought him to the pysch ward today when me and lizzie were at work. I didnt find this out till after work. I am so scared for my brother. I dont want to see him angry, or upset, or DEAD!!! HE'S MY LIL BROTHER!!!! I KNOW WE FIGHT AND SHIT. BUT I CANT LOOSE MY LIL BROTHER!!! IF I DID I DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO. i mean, we have been threw so much, our dad leaving us, my moms x-boyfriend raping me, my mom's exhusband beating my brother, him loosing the only father figure he knew, his scout leader...(stupid jack ass)and so much more. I wish I could do sumthing to help him. I really do. but I can only sit and watch as he keeps getting introuble in school, keeps hurting my mom emoitionly. No telling what he coulddo next. And thats what scares me the most. And most of u kno I only think fear is only a four letter word, but I can truely say I love my lil brother, and i AM scared to loose him. I guess its a love hate relationship but, I will always be here gravityman when u need some one to talk to. I LOVE U LIL BRO!!!
*wips tears away* now that I have cried AGAIN!!! concerrt was great. but I dont want to get into major details, spet. I met a lo, I hung out with Mike, Twinkie and Ben at the show and in line, with the lo I met. umm... Bailey and Shain followed "cleopatra" up to the show. It was great to see them again. FOREVER FAMILY!!! and Amber I wish u were there, just to make it even better. but I got to go get sum sleep. I have work in 12 hours. MMFCL to ya'll!! AND GRAVITYMAN DONT HURT URSELF I LOVE U!!!
~NeRo