it's been such a long long time... THE SEQUEL
yeah, so here's the casual gist of today: i wake up in a hazy deja vu because I had slept from 2:25pm saturday until 7:15am sunday morning. actually, i meant sunday, then i woke up monday, (wow.) that's like a whole day wasted, i was SO annoyed. I arose feeling as though i was in time an entire year later. i don't understand how i can keep having these 'episodes' without being on any (un?)controlled substances. it's unsettling. i had a really bad deja vu a couple weeks ago, which was a real one by the way, and i couldn't stop thinking about it. i kept knocking on walls to see if they were real, otherwise i would fall through them and wake up on a regular ol day.
even though i feel like i really should, i haven't picked out a religion yet. first of all, roaming through the product codes is tough enough without trying to figure out the quantity of rules and regulations i want to follow. And then there's the different catalogs: which has the better 'values' the Torah or Theravada? hmm? just how am i supposed to know that??
for one, i'm not an organized religion type of person. everyone should have some spiritual standards in terms of where they stand, but organized religion is just wrong. catholic school teaches you this. every soul emerges from there wishing to satan to be atheist. it's a widely known fact. i read somewhere, or maybe it was brought up in my World Religions class (the lengths i go to to 'discover' myself), but apparently there was a lost book in the Bible that abolishes organized religion deeming it sinful. pretty much: religion is not what you show on the outside, but what's in you're heart, and that's exactly what i believe. the cults, the persuasion, the corruption, golden candlesticks....
y'know, i had so much more to say about religion, but it's like i said, it's on the inside, the whole scheme of life, part gift as well, is discovering exactly what you want and exactly what you need from Life and others and obtaining it. consider this information a gazillion boxed and wrapped birthday presents in advance. you're welcome.
im more active than i usually am. well... im more proactive for school's end, yet i've always been active. and more defiant. it's a bad mix when you have uptight parents, especially as i begin to realize no matter what i do, i will esape punishment. it's a demonic, yet powerful feeling.
I need a new job.
i neeeed a temple id card (making a bitch call tomorrow)
I neeeeeed to do assignments so people dont hate me.
I ABSOLUTELY need to start on my '10 Goals' list. oooh, one more:
PURCHASE A NERF GUN. preferably old school.
im definitely gonna write on this more. i swear. maybe xanga as well since it fancied itself out. i really feel as though i've been ignoring xanga's needs lately. i still love xanga, deep down. will xanga take me back??? shit yeah, i'm gonna have 'back together' sex with xanga...
even though i feel like i really should, i haven't picked out a religion yet. first of all, roaming through the product codes is tough enough without trying to figure out the quantity of rules and regulations i want to follow. And then there's the different catalogs: which has the better 'values' the Torah or Theravada? hmm? just how am i supposed to know that??
for one, i'm not an organized religion type of person. everyone should have some spiritual standards in terms of where they stand, but organized religion is just wrong. catholic school teaches you this. every soul emerges from there wishing to satan to be atheist. it's a widely known fact. i read somewhere, or maybe it was brought up in my World Religions class (the lengths i go to to 'discover' myself), but apparently there was a lost book in the Bible that abolishes organized religion deeming it sinful. pretty much: religion is not what you show on the outside, but what's in you're heart, and that's exactly what i believe. the cults, the persuasion, the corruption, golden candlesticks....
y'know, i had so much more to say about religion, but it's like i said, it's on the inside, the whole scheme of life, part gift as well, is discovering exactly what you want and exactly what you need from Life and others and obtaining it. consider this information a gazillion boxed and wrapped birthday presents in advance. you're welcome.
im more active than i usually am. well... im more proactive for school's end, yet i've always been active. and more defiant. it's a bad mix when you have uptight parents, especially as i begin to realize no matter what i do, i will esape punishment. it's a demonic, yet powerful feeling.
I need a new job.
i neeeed a temple id card (making a bitch call tomorrow)
I neeeeeed to do assignments so people dont hate me.
I ABSOLUTELY need to start on my '10 Goals' list. oooh, one more:
PURCHASE A NERF GUN. preferably old school.
im definitely gonna write on this more. i swear. maybe xanga as well since it fancied itself out. i really feel as though i've been ignoring xanga's needs lately. i still love xanga, deep down. will xanga take me back??? shit yeah, i'm gonna have 'back together' sex with xanga...