Entry 032: Over-toomuching
I felt like I just had one of the toughest teaching days ever since I starting this job. It was tough in a way that was just... SO FRUSTRATING to the point of tears. I had to quickly blink them away since I was also teaching in front of parents. I don't want to talk about specific children or classes though. Everything just felt so overwhelming and exhausting. My mind had to be so alert and aware of my students while teaching, being mindful of time, and conscious of the parents watching. When the students don't listen, when they misbehave, when they don't respond and then when parents just sit there and fail to control their own children as my whole lesson and control just go out the window, I just wanted to cry. For a moment, I almost didn't feel human when I had to take a deep breath and just feel nothing. My mind just started to go on robot mode and teach where I lost almost all sense of time and overran a lesson. Then, I slowly started getting my sanity back and realized I don't want to take no shit no more. The night was almost over and the weekend was almost here. I was done. XD
ANYWAY!!!
The only highlights of my days so far have been...
I'm particularly excited about Tegomass because it hit me how the chances of hitting were quite slim as I saw the prices of the resale tickets online. Also, my last concert was KAT-TUN's Countdown and January had no major concerts or events (sorry, Yutaka, I don't really count your solo live).
I was super happy to get some of my clothes and other accessories from home mostly because I'm too cheap to buy new ones and I don't really have time to go shopping. Like, the other day, I wore my favorite Big Bang hoodie, my sol x tokidoki headphones, let my hair down since I was teaching an easy class, and I put on my contacts for once. When I was on the train to work, I looked at my reflection at the window from me and for the first time in a long time, I felt like I looked like me; how I always would when I was back in New York. It felt kind of comforting.
As for my February vacation days, I submitted the requests back in December (or even November) when the Tegomass concert dates were released. Also, I booked the weekend of my birthday off because well... MAI BURFDEI and I'll be seeing Tenimyu for the first time, as well as other activities.
Only today did I see that BOYS AND MEN are having a release event for their new single 'Chocolate Prince' on a day Josie and I would be able to go. I missed out on their Christmas cd release so I really wanna make it for what I assume is a Valentine's Day theme.
That's it for now, I guess. I just wanted to let out some of my rawr even though it's quite light. And, at least I updated a little?
Lately, my sleeping has been terrible because of my 2 week vacation and the activities/lack of activity during it. I hope it becomes stable soon because the next few weeks will be killer!
ANYWAY!!!
The only highlights of my days so far have been...
- TEGOMASS concert in Osaka ballot hit for Feb 15th with Lauren from her ballot (mine failed XD)
- package from home with winter clothes and movie dvds galore!
- approved vacation days in February
- tentatively going to BOYS AND MEN's Chocolate Prince cd launch event
I'm particularly excited about Tegomass because it hit me how the chances of hitting were quite slim as I saw the prices of the resale tickets online. Also, my last concert was KAT-TUN's Countdown and January had no major concerts or events (sorry, Yutaka, I don't really count your solo live).
I was super happy to get some of my clothes and other accessories from home mostly because I'm too cheap to buy new ones and I don't really have time to go shopping. Like, the other day, I wore my favorite Big Bang hoodie, my sol x tokidoki headphones, let my hair down since I was teaching an easy class, and I put on my contacts for once. When I was on the train to work, I looked at my reflection at the window from me and for the first time in a long time, I felt like I looked like me; how I always would when I was back in New York. It felt kind of comforting.
As for my February vacation days, I submitted the requests back in December (or even November) when the Tegomass concert dates were released. Also, I booked the weekend of my birthday off because well... MAI BURFDEI and I'll be seeing Tenimyu for the first time, as well as other activities.
Only today did I see that BOYS AND MEN are having a release event for their new single 'Chocolate Prince' on a day Josie and I would be able to go. I missed out on their Christmas cd release so I really wanna make it for what I assume is a Valentine's Day theme.
That's it for now, I guess. I just wanted to let out some of my rawr even though it's quite light. And, at least I updated a little?
Lately, my sleeping has been terrible because of my 2 week vacation and the activities/lack of activity during it. I hope it becomes stable soon because the next few weeks will be killer!