going down...
and u tell me not to feel down...read...
why r u doing this 2 me...i come online..u go off....is it really so hard to say hi or bye?...do i really bother u so much?...if i do...please..wont u tell me..at least i will know....have i done anything wrong?...have i caused u any harm?...tell me why ur acting like this...i know about you and him....and im damn happy 4 both of u....im not angry...im just sad...sad..because U werent the one to tell me...i had to find it out myself...didnt i tell u id be alright as long as u are happy?..why couldnt u just tell me...i trusted u...and i still do...even now...u havnt told me or even mentioned it...why?..dont u think i deserve to know?...u want me to continue dreaming of US when u r already with another?...or have i totally misunderstood and misinterpreted this whole fucking thing...now...if im right...then i know...and at least i understand what i have to do...i have to let go of that dream..realize that i have no chance...do u give me false hope?..id prefer no hope...and i still wanna be ur friend...but looks like ur too good 4 me now and u dont even wanna talk to me...dont u just shrug me off and tell me im being paranoid or sensitive....im not...i dont want our friendship 2 be ruined...ill be here if u wanna say anything or pound me with some insults...np...ill still be your friend...will u?i will always be..its up 2 u...its ur choice..if u wanna just ignore me and my friendship and feelings...or return my friendship...ill wait...come online wont u?..and please...if u dont even want my friendship...have the heart 2 TELL me...dont leave me hanging....tq...