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Everything's my fault! Go ahead, blame all of your problems on me. Everyone line up and take a turn! Not like I'm going to stop it. I can't do anything right in the first place. So come on, I know that even you (yes, you!) have something to put on my shoulders. Not that I need it or anything, but I am a receptacle for all the garbage in the world. If something goes wrong in your life, blame me. Even if I had nothing to do with it, go ahead, blame me. Why not? It's fun for the whole family. Let's see who can lay the most blame on me, it's a past time like no other. Just because I'm a nice guy, I'll take the fall for all of your misgivings.
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On a more serious note, things at home are falling apart. Neither of my roommates want me around, nor do they really like me too much. One in particular. I've spent money that I don't have to make sure that she could stay here, and guess where it got me? In a shit-hole that I can no longer climb out of. And what did I get in return, you ask? Nothing but misery and regret. Outside of that, I'm in a really shitty predicament, no one will help me, either. I have no friends to call, I have no place to go. My world has separated itself from me. My world is like a candy store, and I'm the broke kid standing at the window while everyone inside is enjoying themselves. FUCK THIS SHIT!!! If they want me to be a dick, then I'll play the part. But they need to realize that they brought it upon themselves. If you want to alienate me, fine, I can alienate people better than anybody on this entire planet. I've had years of practice. So, if you want something from me, you better have something of equal value to trade for it, or else you get nothing. No questions asked. FUCK YOU ALL, EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU!!! I'm done being the nice person I worked so hard to become. Now I'm going to show you all what a real asshole can do. This is your fair warning. Sorry things had to be like this, but you pushed me to it, every last one of you. Since this may be the last post I am able to make for a while, I'll leave you all with a thought: If you were in my position, how would you deal with this? Hopefully better than this, but I have no other choice anymore.
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On a more serious note, things at home are falling apart. Neither of my roommates want me around, nor do they really like me too much. One in particular. I've spent money that I don't have to make sure that she could stay here, and guess where it got me? In a shit-hole that I can no longer climb out of. And what did I get in return, you ask? Nothing but misery and regret. Outside of that, I'm in a really shitty predicament, no one will help me, either. I have no friends to call, I have no place to go. My world has separated itself from me. My world is like a candy store, and I'm the broke kid standing at the window while everyone inside is enjoying themselves. FUCK THIS SHIT!!! If they want me to be a dick, then I'll play the part. But they need to realize that they brought it upon themselves. If you want to alienate me, fine, I can alienate people better than anybody on this entire planet. I've had years of practice. So, if you want something from me, you better have something of equal value to trade for it, or else you get nothing. No questions asked. FUCK YOU ALL, EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU!!! I'm done being the nice person I worked so hard to become. Now I'm going to show you all what a real asshole can do. This is your fair warning. Sorry things had to be like this, but you pushed me to it, every last one of you. Since this may be the last post I am able to make for a while, I'll leave you all with a thought: If you were in my position, how would you deal with this? Hopefully better than this, but I have no other choice anymore.