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Heartbreak... that is what I feel. Everyday, always the same feelings of rejection and loneliness. Do you know what it's like to live with the person you love with all your heart, and never be able to win their heart? Is there nothing I can do to win her heart? Whatever. And I see things change a couple of days before she starts going out with someone else, like, she gets real distant, and irritable, and she doesn't want to be around me. I mean, seriously, we literally do everything together, share everything we have, but she just doesn't seem to think that I can be the one for her. I've sacrificed so much to ensure her happiness, and all I wanted in return is her love. I guess that any random dick-fuck that has a car can get with her, but a lower-class loser like me is destined to be lonely for the rest of my life. Whatever. This is so unfair, and don't give me the "life's not fair" speech, because I've heard it too many times. Anyway, I just finished A Clockwork Orange, a real horrorshow work written by Anthony Burgess, I near didn't believe my glazzies as to the goings on in this fine piece of literature, yet I couldn't put it down. Real horrorshow, real horrorshow indeed. Though I thought it was a malenky bit on the short side. Well, the job hunt continues, waiting to hear back from a couple of places, and hoping for at least two jobs. So, back into solitude I go, my droogs and fellow nadsats, be real horrorshow.