i WAS happy
Latley I've been pretty happy with my life and just happy and I really enjoyed that. But latley it has all gone down hill. I'm not happy anymore because I'm too emotional or whatever. I just wish I wasn't me sometimes, I hate complaining but I know I do it all the time. But no one is perfect and everyone's a hypocrite, weather you like it or not. A lot has been just dumped on me for the past couple years and honestly I can't find myself again. I don't know the happy Alisha I was, because I can't remember if I was ever happy. In some ways I miss downtown, this summer is going to be so weird. I'm not gonna be able to just run to Taylor's and sleep in her igloo house anymore, I hate change and I'm not afriad to admit that because I do hate it, and I'm horrible at dealing with it. I can't stand it, and latley everything is upside down. My mind doesn't think straight, I yell at the people I love, and it makes no sense, I was happy just a day ago. But somehow little things really get me down, I just wish sometimes I was the "good" "perfect" friend. Yeah well I never will be so how about people just freaking get over that. I make mistakes, I screw up a lot, I'm not nice all the time well excuse me. Gosh, why is it right for people to ditch people, and betray them. Holding grudges? I mean where is that ok? How does that person be percived as "perfect" yeah. I'm sick of this life. Don't comment if your going to bash me chances are you've already told me how horrible I am or what I've done to you like 5 months ago.
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