hOme...bOred..nOt cOOl
gay, im home on a friday night. i was gunna call tom b4, or rather ryan cuz hes out with tom. the 3 guys(matt ryan and tom) went to some show tonight in rutherford, to see, the number twelve? maybe, yeah i think so. and tom told me that i should call him when i was done reffing or whenever i got home. but idk, im sure he just wanted to be with the guys, and even so im always with him, so i mean..im giving him a rest of me i guess :-\ idk why i didnt call him tonight, im lieing...i wanted to call him, but idk. something stopped me..weird right? who knows. idk, ive been feeling weird lately, and once again..NO IDEA WHY! im dumb..:-(
i think im sexually frustrated. thats wat sharath told me today, and i think hes right. like he was talking to me about it, and like my leg was bouncing and i couldnt stand still...ughh not cool. idk wat to do about it either, cuz im not about to cheat on tom, no effing way. but i dont wanna rush into things with tom cuz its like if we rush into things, then eventually theres nothing to look forward to. so idk, i wanna like start moving on with tom and all, but idk how..and idk if we are ready to. maybe im just being stupid and selfish. or maybe im just being a horny 16 year old that hasnt gotten any since...AUGUST! *sigh* let me stop ranting about this..cuz ill go on forever..im effing bored...eff this..im out
<3amber
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i think im sexually frustrated. thats wat sharath told me today, and i think hes right. like he was talking to me about it, and like my leg was bouncing and i couldnt stand still...ughh not cool. idk wat to do about it either, cuz im not about to cheat on tom, no effing way. but i dont wanna rush into things with tom cuz its like if we rush into things, then eventually theres nothing to look forward to. so idk, i wanna like start moving on with tom and all, but idk how..and idk if we are ready to. maybe im just being stupid and selfish. or maybe im just being a horny 16 year old that hasnt gotten any since...AUGUST! *sigh* let me stop ranting about this..cuz ill go on forever..im effing bored...eff this..im out
<3amber
---people leave me sum love!