Well, it's better than before, but still...
I don't know what it is...I never feel like I'm DOING anything with my life. Yes, I have things to look forward now, but I don't feel like I'm doing anything important.
I've got some stuff in my life working out for the better, like my financial situation. I'm no longer in debt and I'm starting to save money, but I'm getting nothing out of my job. I haven't DONE anything closely related to my job and I've been in the Air Force for nearly a year. I've gone through basic training, two technical training schools, and I'm almost through my inprocessing here at this base, but I haven't DONE anything.
I am feeling better than I had been in the past, I have Christina in my life, though not in the same location. I am very grateful to know her and to have her love. I can't imagine how I made it through without her, and I know she'll be with me for the rest of it. She's been my motivation to get things straightened out and to keep my life in order.
She's been a big help to me, but I'm still not getting anything out of my "career" in the Air Force. And to think it's only going to last for another two years, because I AM cross-training to something else. I hope that when I actually do something, that I acutally FEEL I'm doing something.
Sometimes I can't believe that Christina and I are so close already. Yeah, I've known she's liked me since the Friday before I left. But, we've only been together since October 18, and "dating" since September 13. (If you're confused about why I put it quotes, just ask me sometime, I'll explain.) But, I love her, there's no doubt about that. There's no one else I'd rather spend the rest of my life with. I hope everyone out there can find or has found someone that they would feel the same way about. It's the greatest feeling I've known.
Wow, this is just like old times, I'm up late at night and writing in my journal. Oh, BTW, my journal entry times are in EST, not CST. Just if you're wondering.
Well, my movie is almost over (I'm watching Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom, of which I bought the Trilogy today) and so I'm going to leave now. I'll talk to you all later.
"Until we know our destiny, we do what we must."
I've got some stuff in my life working out for the better, like my financial situation. I'm no longer in debt and I'm starting to save money, but I'm getting nothing out of my job. I haven't DONE anything closely related to my job and I've been in the Air Force for nearly a year. I've gone through basic training, two technical training schools, and I'm almost through my inprocessing here at this base, but I haven't DONE anything.
I am feeling better than I had been in the past, I have Christina in my life, though not in the same location. I am very grateful to know her and to have her love. I can't imagine how I made it through without her, and I know she'll be with me for the rest of it. She's been my motivation to get things straightened out and to keep my life in order.
She's been a big help to me, but I'm still not getting anything out of my "career" in the Air Force. And to think it's only going to last for another two years, because I AM cross-training to something else. I hope that when I actually do something, that I acutally FEEL I'm doing something.
Sometimes I can't believe that Christina and I are so close already. Yeah, I've known she's liked me since the Friday before I left. But, we've only been together since October 18, and "dating" since September 13. (If you're confused about why I put it quotes, just ask me sometime, I'll explain.) But, I love her, there's no doubt about that. There's no one else I'd rather spend the rest of my life with. I hope everyone out there can find or has found someone that they would feel the same way about. It's the greatest feeling I've known.
Wow, this is just like old times, I'm up late at night and writing in my journal. Oh, BTW, my journal entry times are in EST, not CST. Just if you're wondering.
Well, my movie is almost over (I'm watching Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom, of which I bought the Trilogy today) and so I'm going to leave now. I'll talk to you all later.
"Until we know our destiny, we do what we must."