What I don't blog about, Post #1
Question from lyricmaniac : I'd like to know where you see yourself a year, 3 years, and 5 years from now.
This is a tough one, because our 5-year plan got thrown out the window when we conceived Ben a year before we'd originally wanted to.
1 year from now (Feb 2011): I will still be in graduate school, maybe with a clear(er) picture of when I'll be finishing up. Ben will be 20 months old and probably saying some clear words, walking around, being the awesome little guy I know he'll turn into. Jake will still be teaching at CSA and have one year of his master's program finished. We keep tossing around the idea of being pregnant again, although I'm still leery of that thought.
3 years from now (2013): Finished with my Ph.D. (YAY), hopefully in a postdoctoral position or even a faculty teaching position at a new institution. Moved (or thinking of moving) back East to be closer to family. 2nd child already here or on the way (or even 3rd child being discussed). Jake finished with his master's and holding down a new full-time teaching job in the place where we settle permanently. Ben will be 3 1/2 (!). I hope that I will have learned how to manage my time between jobs and family and have worked back in things that I enjoy but don't have the energy for now (ie running, outside activities and clubs, more downtime for reading and relaxing).
5 years from now (2015): I will be getting very close to 30. Hopefully by this time I will have settled into my academic career or have figured out exactly what I want to do with my life (research, teaching, writing, editing... there are so many opportunities but I don't know what I'd really LOVE). Jake working his way toward tenure in a public school job, or just having fun teaching music and private lessons. Ben will be nearly 6 and amazing me in every way possible. By this time, I'd like to have 3 children (if we're so fortunate to have more, that is) and maybe be finished with the baby stuff. I want to run a 1/2 marathon before I'm 30, so hopefully that will be done before now. I want to travel again and, if the kids are old enough to stay with grandparents, maybe Jake and I will take a 2nd honeymoon to Europe or Turkey. We'll be coming up on 9 years of marriage in 2015, with hopefully the best years still to come.
Because you're so damn cool, calm, and collected, I'd also like to know what frazzles and scares you the most.
I would say I'm probably one of the LEAST cool, calm, and collected person you'll ever meet! Day-to-day life frazzles me and stresses me out. I let silly little things overwhelm me and end up shutting down or completely losing my mind. Things like laundry getting done and dishes put in the dishwasher on a nightly basis freak me out every single night, basically. The thing that probably stresses me out the most, however, is pumping enough breastmilk for Ben on a daily basis. I'm doing SO much better than before, but I still pump 5 times a day, including getting up once in the middle of the night. I'm constantly calculating and re-calculating how many ounces I have and how many more I need each day before I 'break even'. I got into such a rut and had such anxiety over it this fall that I went to go see a counselor at a free mental health day at UM. They referred me to a psychologist, but life happened and I never made it for further testing.
As far as what SCARES me the most? That's easy: SNAKES!
This is a tough one, because our 5-year plan got thrown out the window when we conceived Ben a year before we'd originally wanted to.
1 year from now (Feb 2011): I will still be in graduate school, maybe with a clear(er) picture of when I'll be finishing up. Ben will be 20 months old and probably saying some clear words, walking around, being the awesome little guy I know he'll turn into. Jake will still be teaching at CSA and have one year of his master's program finished. We keep tossing around the idea of being pregnant again, although I'm still leery of that thought.
3 years from now (2013): Finished with my Ph.D. (YAY), hopefully in a postdoctoral position or even a faculty teaching position at a new institution. Moved (or thinking of moving) back East to be closer to family. 2nd child already here or on the way (or even 3rd child being discussed). Jake finished with his master's and holding down a new full-time teaching job in the place where we settle permanently. Ben will be 3 1/2 (!). I hope that I will have learned how to manage my time between jobs and family and have worked back in things that I enjoy but don't have the energy for now (ie running, outside activities and clubs, more downtime for reading and relaxing).
5 years from now (2015): I will be getting very close to 30. Hopefully by this time I will have settled into my academic career or have figured out exactly what I want to do with my life (research, teaching, writing, editing... there are so many opportunities but I don't know what I'd really LOVE). Jake working his way toward tenure in a public school job, or just having fun teaching music and private lessons. Ben will be nearly 6 and amazing me in every way possible. By this time, I'd like to have 3 children (if we're so fortunate to have more, that is) and maybe be finished with the baby stuff. I want to run a 1/2 marathon before I'm 30, so hopefully that will be done before now. I want to travel again and, if the kids are old enough to stay with grandparents, maybe Jake and I will take a 2nd honeymoon to Europe or Turkey. We'll be coming up on 9 years of marriage in 2015, with hopefully the best years still to come.
Because you're so damn cool, calm, and collected, I'd also like to know what frazzles and scares you the most.
I would say I'm probably one of the LEAST cool, calm, and collected person you'll ever meet! Day-to-day life frazzles me and stresses me out. I let silly little things overwhelm me and end up shutting down or completely losing my mind. Things like laundry getting done and dishes put in the dishwasher on a nightly basis freak me out every single night, basically. The thing that probably stresses me out the most, however, is pumping enough breastmilk for Ben on a daily basis. I'm doing SO much better than before, but I still pump 5 times a day, including getting up once in the middle of the night. I'm constantly calculating and re-calculating how many ounces I have and how many more I need each day before I 'break even'. I got into such a rut and had such anxiety over it this fall that I went to go see a counselor at a free mental health day at UM. They referred me to a psychologist, but life happened and I never made it for further testing.
As far as what SCARES me the most? That's easy: SNAKES!