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Going to see Dad in the hospital today. I'm not sure what time we're leaving, Jake is still asleep.
I'm kinda nervous. I really don't know what to expect. I know that what I'm going to see is a lot better than what David or Karen or Mom has seen, but I'm still a little nervous.
What do you do when your father is incapacitated? Isn't he the strong, dependable guy that you've grown up with? What do you do now that he's not able to walk or to hold things, or to even sit up in a hospital bed? He has to be fed like a child again.
My world seems turned upside down. The things that were stable and taken for granted are no longer there to depend on. I'm being melodramatic and making more out of this than I really should. I'm letting my mind run away from me and giving into all of my most cynical fantasies. I should stop.
I'm kinda nervous. I really don't know what to expect. I know that what I'm going to see is a lot better than what David or Karen or Mom has seen, but I'm still a little nervous.
What do you do when your father is incapacitated? Isn't he the strong, dependable guy that you've grown up with? What do you do now that he's not able to walk or to hold things, or to even sit up in a hospital bed? He has to be fed like a child again.
My world seems turned upside down. The things that were stable and taken for granted are no longer there to depend on. I'm being melodramatic and making more out of this than I really should. I'm letting my mind run away from me and giving into all of my most cynical fantasies. I should stop.