runnin on three hours of sleep...
wow. last night i was up till 2 am. im so tired right now... but it was so worth it. i loved my talk with him last night. i loved every minute. although, im still very confused about us. idk. i know we cant be together and it hurts, but i just have to understand that we cant be together right now, and the weird thing is, is that i do understand, but i dont want to face it. and i know that no matter what, you will always love me just like you told me last night. i have to focus on me right now. and not listen to what everyone else thinks. i just have to work at it. gosh i miss him so much. it sucks. but i will move on eventually, never completely, but to a point where im much more stable... i guess... or more comfortable with just being single without him. idk... none of this probably makes since to anyone and its okay... because this was basically just so that i could get this off my chest. i needed this. well i think im done with this entry. im gonna go crash in a little bit cuz im soooo tired.