Getting laid these days...
Its strange, when I was younger and in school still, I was found my trouble in meeting/talking with girls was that I was too shy and didnt know what to say. I was always seen at the nice, smart, and shy guy that never got into trouble. Then with my last 2 years in high school, I begin to taste power by gaining control of many of the schools functions. At one point, I controlled and had complete access to the schools website, all tv announcements and broadcasts, and all events done in the main areas and auditorium went done through me. Most people would think that I was a model student but in reality I used them all to my advantage as I saw fit. Everyone knew who I was and never questioned me when I would roam the hallways, had keys to classrooms, or would leave during class because there was an "event" going on somewhere else. It was a great time and I really enjoyed this taste of power. It was this power that I began to attract certain girls but it was soon gone once school ended.
Becoming a salesman soon after highschool forced the shyness out of me which turned out for the better. When you deal with so many people with different ages, races, and personalities, you learn to adapt and read to them. It took a few months but I became really solid at reading people and being to figure out what they wanted to hear. I wasnt lying to them or anything, but I was simply making them more comfortable with me by talking with them. I discovered once a majority became comfortable, their wallets and pockets became a lot deeper. So when my sales went up, my pay checks went up. I was straight out of highschool and I was making more than my own parents. During that time I was still with someone that I met in highschool until I started to get really cocky. I was getting really good with sales and I saw an opportunity to take a management spot. With that in mind, I thought that every woman that stepped into the store wanted me which left me with a really poor attitude with my girlfriend at that time. It was soon after that I cheated on her with an other co-worker for no reason. About a month after that started, I ended both relationships and focused my time on work. 3 Months later I was offered my own store and a new personality arose.
My first 3 months were rough as a new manager and it showed. I was proud to be in my new position but not confident. During this time I started to become close with Ivey and forgot were my priorities were. It also showed in my store's perfomance and my attitude. It wasnt until Ivey pushed me a away did I focus again in my work and thats when things began to take off. Suddenly, I was the districts hero and my store started to almost run itself. My confidence came back and the store only began to produce better results.
Now... my store is ranked #4 in the entire region that includes 270 stores. I make more money than my parents combined. I have received so many awards that I ran out of room to put them up. I even won a $2,000 cruise to Alaksa that is coming up based on my performance. But it has also reflected my attitude. I walk everywhere with confidence and pride. I have a new sense in power and that no one will be able to stop me from reaching my goals. But Im always cautious about it remembering what happened the last time it went to my head.
So with the combination of pride and people skills, I would have thought I would have gotten over my problem wih talking to others women but thats not the case. I can go into a room filled with hundreds of people and give a speech without breaking a sweat, Im the guy who walks into your place of business and leaves with your smiling and laughing, and Im the guy who knows everything about anything. But with this new responsibility, it has become difficult to find a signicant other. I decided that I would not drink, smoke, or do anything else that would affect my job. I often spend 60+ hours a week at work leaving very little time to commit myself to a relationship. Worse yet, I often am still dressed in my RadioShack clothes because I probably just left from there. So when I find myself talking to someone and there is a potential of a relationship, I always back down and leave in a professional way because I fear tainting the name that is on my shirt.
It doesnt help either that most people my age are still in the party stage. Most people my age are simply confused by the idea of not drinking. They are unable to make any sense of it much less understand my desire and passion to succeed in life. Most people dont understand that I want to home by 1:00 a.m. because I have to be at work by 9:00 a.m. to run a half a million dollar store and that I am responsible for it. So again, I am left to a small handfull of people who are attracted to power and responsibility. Some of those are too busy and focused in their own careers and goals to even commit themselves to a relationship and the other half becomes bored because they have no amibitions themselves. So I wonder, am I just doomed? Am I going to be in my late 20's and still single but surrounded by money. Am I going to be in my 30's and be a CEO of a well known company but go to all public events by myself. Am I going to die alone?
I have been through several relationships. I have found myself in several deep holes because of these relationships. But the one thing that was always been there fall back on and use to pull myself out of these halls has been my work. That is the only place where I feel that I am actually solid in and no one can touch me there. So will I die alone? I dont know the answer to that question but if I do, I dont think Ill be hurting or regreting it.
It doenst mean that I wont try to find someone to share my life with. I really to find someone that is as serious as I am. I think thats where a lot of my problems start. I always tend to find myself with younger girls that are not as serious and thats were problems tend to arise. I also think that the area I am living in is not suited for me. I think that I may have a better chance in larger cities where I may hope to find a wider variety of people. But for now, I will continue to build my finances and skills and most likely move to a bigger city. There I hope to meet my live partner and become successful. Afterwards, I plan on coming back to my home town with my new family to rejoin with my old, and take over this town by starting my own monopoly...
I did once before in high school... who says I cant take it to a large scale and do it again... I cant be stopped, I wont be stopped, because I have a drive in me that no one else has...
-PureOmnipotence
Becoming a salesman soon after highschool forced the shyness out of me which turned out for the better. When you deal with so many people with different ages, races, and personalities, you learn to adapt and read to them. It took a few months but I became really solid at reading people and being to figure out what they wanted to hear. I wasnt lying to them or anything, but I was simply making them more comfortable with me by talking with them. I discovered once a majority became comfortable, their wallets and pockets became a lot deeper. So when my sales went up, my pay checks went up. I was straight out of highschool and I was making more than my own parents. During that time I was still with someone that I met in highschool until I started to get really cocky. I was getting really good with sales and I saw an opportunity to take a management spot. With that in mind, I thought that every woman that stepped into the store wanted me which left me with a really poor attitude with my girlfriend at that time. It was soon after that I cheated on her with an other co-worker for no reason. About a month after that started, I ended both relationships and focused my time on work. 3 Months later I was offered my own store and a new personality arose.
My first 3 months were rough as a new manager and it showed. I was proud to be in my new position but not confident. During this time I started to become close with Ivey and forgot were my priorities were. It also showed in my store's perfomance and my attitude. It wasnt until Ivey pushed me a away did I focus again in my work and thats when things began to take off. Suddenly, I was the districts hero and my store started to almost run itself. My confidence came back and the store only began to produce better results.
Now... my store is ranked #4 in the entire region that includes 270 stores. I make more money than my parents combined. I have received so many awards that I ran out of room to put them up. I even won a $2,000 cruise to Alaksa that is coming up based on my performance. But it has also reflected my attitude. I walk everywhere with confidence and pride. I have a new sense in power and that no one will be able to stop me from reaching my goals. But Im always cautious about it remembering what happened the last time it went to my head.
So with the combination of pride and people skills, I would have thought I would have gotten over my problem wih talking to others women but thats not the case. I can go into a room filled with hundreds of people and give a speech without breaking a sweat, Im the guy who walks into your place of business and leaves with your smiling and laughing, and Im the guy who knows everything about anything. But with this new responsibility, it has become difficult to find a signicant other. I decided that I would not drink, smoke, or do anything else that would affect my job. I often spend 60+ hours a week at work leaving very little time to commit myself to a relationship. Worse yet, I often am still dressed in my RadioShack clothes because I probably just left from there. So when I find myself talking to someone and there is a potential of a relationship, I always back down and leave in a professional way because I fear tainting the name that is on my shirt.
It doesnt help either that most people my age are still in the party stage. Most people my age are simply confused by the idea of not drinking. They are unable to make any sense of it much less understand my desire and passion to succeed in life. Most people dont understand that I want to home by 1:00 a.m. because I have to be at work by 9:00 a.m. to run a half a million dollar store and that I am responsible for it. So again, I am left to a small handfull of people who are attracted to power and responsibility. Some of those are too busy and focused in their own careers and goals to even commit themselves to a relationship and the other half becomes bored because they have no amibitions themselves. So I wonder, am I just doomed? Am I going to be in my late 20's and still single but surrounded by money. Am I going to be in my 30's and be a CEO of a well known company but go to all public events by myself. Am I going to die alone?
I have been through several relationships. I have found myself in several deep holes because of these relationships. But the one thing that was always been there fall back on and use to pull myself out of these halls has been my work. That is the only place where I feel that I am actually solid in and no one can touch me there. So will I die alone? I dont know the answer to that question but if I do, I dont think Ill be hurting or regreting it.
It doenst mean that I wont try to find someone to share my life with. I really to find someone that is as serious as I am. I think thats where a lot of my problems start. I always tend to find myself with younger girls that are not as serious and thats were problems tend to arise. I also think that the area I am living in is not suited for me. I think that I may have a better chance in larger cities where I may hope to find a wider variety of people. But for now, I will continue to build my finances and skills and most likely move to a bigger city. There I hope to meet my live partner and become successful. Afterwards, I plan on coming back to my home town with my new family to rejoin with my old, and take over this town by starting my own monopoly...
I did once before in high school... who says I cant take it to a large scale and do it again... I cant be stopped, I wont be stopped, because I have a drive in me that no one else has...
-PureOmnipotence