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in the past week and a half:
i worked my ass off at work
my boyfriend/bestfriend/person i'm in love with broke up with me two days before christmas
i spent christmas day crying
i got really good at driving around aimlessly and chainsmoking
i didn't sleep much
i didn't really want to go out on new years but i did anyway and wish i hadn't
i was at work for 17 consecutive hours, on new years day, with a bitchin hangover, leaving work at 5 in the morning, after working the previous 3 days, then went to work the next day, and the day after
and then today, as the cherry on the motherfucking cake,
my grandmother died today. on her birthday. i didn't think it would upset me as much as it did, since we were never very close. i can't stop thinking about the way she died, since it sounded quick but extremely far from easy or comfortable.
i left work to come home and be with my mom and cried the entire drive from novato to oakland.
i'm flying to georgia tomorrow morning, and am coming back saturday.
i know no one actually reads this anymore, i just needed a place to write this, and it seemed like a stupid thing to put in a myspace blog (plus i havn't been on it in over a week because i'm dreading having to switch my status to 'single' and delete pictures of us kissing.)
i worked my ass off at work
my boyfriend/bestfriend/person i'm in love with broke up with me two days before christmas
i spent christmas day crying
i got really good at driving around aimlessly and chainsmoking
i didn't sleep much
i didn't really want to go out on new years but i did anyway and wish i hadn't
i was at work for 17 consecutive hours, on new years day, with a bitchin hangover, leaving work at 5 in the morning, after working the previous 3 days, then went to work the next day, and the day after
and then today, as the cherry on the motherfucking cake,
my grandmother died today. on her birthday. i didn't think it would upset me as much as it did, since we were never very close. i can't stop thinking about the way she died, since it sounded quick but extremely far from easy or comfortable.
i left work to come home and be with my mom and cried the entire drive from novato to oakland.
i'm flying to georgia tomorrow morning, and am coming back saturday.
i know no one actually reads this anymore, i just needed a place to write this, and it seemed like a stupid thing to put in a myspace blog (plus i havn't been on it in over a week because i'm dreading having to switch my status to 'single' and delete pictures of us kissing.)