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hey everyone, here's is a truely fucking brilliant idea:
stay out of other peoples business.
i really find it difficult to understand why it is okay to not only get involved in something that is not at all your business, but to then gang up on someone. sorry, i understand that you all think i am this horrible, moral-less person who has no reguard for anything or anyone, and who has fucked up prioities and no feelings, but you know what? believe it or not, i do actually have FEELINGS. shocking as it may seem, it really effects me when i have to read livejornal posts about how i'm a shitty person from people who are nice to my face, and it also really effects me when for the second time in less than a year, i feel totally ganged up on by close friends.
and hey, i know that your feelings have been hurt, all of you, and probably by me at some time. but you all seem to be forgetting times when MY feelings have been hurt by YOU. that isn't to say that that cancels out any pain i have caused you, in some type of 'eye for an eye' logic. why i bring that up is simply to point out the fact that its not like i am some person who just runs around ruining the lives of you poor innocent people.
i also am really dissapointed with how hypocritical a lot of you can be. casting the blame on me entirely in an effort to divert attention from your own bad choices and hurtful actions is not only cowardly, but hurtful. and sorry, its not like any of you AREN'T guilty of the things now seem to hate me for.
i know that this may seem unfair or maybe without any legitimate basis for me to say, since, afterall, you are all victims of my apparent evil life ruining rampage, but its how i feel: this past week i have been having a extremely difficult time dealing with all the events of the past few weeks. i have felt really alone, which wasn't helped by the fact that i got the sweetest cold/fever thing ever, as well as my mother's ongoing battle with the concept that yes, when you ask for a divorce, it usually results in GETTING ONE.
and now, after all of this, the way i've been coping with all this has in turn pushed someone close to me away, which i'm sure most of you will be thrilled about, but really upsets me.
i'm sure that writing this won't do anything to help my case, and will probably just give you all more fuel for your "francesca is such a bitch' bonfire, but i felt like i needed to say this.
if i lose you guys for good over this, so be it. i already kind of feel like i have.
stay out of other peoples business.
i really find it difficult to understand why it is okay to not only get involved in something that is not at all your business, but to then gang up on someone. sorry, i understand that you all think i am this horrible, moral-less person who has no reguard for anything or anyone, and who has fucked up prioities and no feelings, but you know what? believe it or not, i do actually have FEELINGS. shocking as it may seem, it really effects me when i have to read livejornal posts about how i'm a shitty person from people who are nice to my face, and it also really effects me when for the second time in less than a year, i feel totally ganged up on by close friends.
and hey, i know that your feelings have been hurt, all of you, and probably by me at some time. but you all seem to be forgetting times when MY feelings have been hurt by YOU. that isn't to say that that cancels out any pain i have caused you, in some type of 'eye for an eye' logic. why i bring that up is simply to point out the fact that its not like i am some person who just runs around ruining the lives of you poor innocent people.
i also am really dissapointed with how hypocritical a lot of you can be. casting the blame on me entirely in an effort to divert attention from your own bad choices and hurtful actions is not only cowardly, but hurtful. and sorry, its not like any of you AREN'T guilty of the things now seem to hate me for.
i know that this may seem unfair or maybe without any legitimate basis for me to say, since, afterall, you are all victims of my apparent evil life ruining rampage, but its how i feel: this past week i have been having a extremely difficult time dealing with all the events of the past few weeks. i have felt really alone, which wasn't helped by the fact that i got the sweetest cold/fever thing ever, as well as my mother's ongoing battle with the concept that yes, when you ask for a divorce, it usually results in GETTING ONE.
and now, after all of this, the way i've been coping with all this has in turn pushed someone close to me away, which i'm sure most of you will be thrilled about, but really upsets me.
i'm sure that writing this won't do anything to help my case, and will probably just give you all more fuel for your "francesca is such a bitch' bonfire, but i felt like i needed to say this.
if i lose you guys for good over this, so be it. i already kind of feel like i have.