My Beloved, do you know how many times I've stared at clouds thinking that I saw you there...?
It's colder than before
The seasons took all they had come for
Now winter dances here
It seems so fitting, don't you think
Do dress the ground in white
and grey... -lyrics from "Beloved" by VNV Nation, an excellent song. They have quite a few of those. I like them.
Today was my first contact visit with Chris! I found out last night on the phone that I was approved, which only took three weeks instead of the assumed 6-8 (we both had a feeling it wouldn't take as long, and we were right!). GOD it was so wonderful to kiss him, to hold him tight, to feel him hold me, to smell him, to hold his hands, to buy him food that he really liked (since I visited during lunch, I was happy to use some change I had laying around to buy him from the vending machines: an egg roll, baked Doritos, Reese's peanut butter cups, and a strawberry cheese danish--very similar to the kinds of food we'd pick up at the corner gas station), so nice to share food with him and be so grateful to me, to see him smile so adorably boyishly charming, to talk to him face-to-face for three hours, to watch him stare blatantly at my body and remark on what he wished, very vehemently, he could do to me, right then and there, to glance down and see hard evidence (pun intended) of just how prominent that longing was...and I get to see him again on Friday!
Kids, life is good. We are now truly on easy street. Or at least we really will be when winter break starts in a week and a half. I'm so happy and relieved and just oh my God. *happy sigh* I got to sing to him and everything, and it almost made him cry, he's so fucking adorable. I have the best fiancee in the world, I don't give a FUCK what anyone else thinks. He's the only one for me in this entire world, and he's mine mine MINE, forever and ever, till death do us part. And, even then, "Though lovers be lost, love shalt not, and death shall have no dominion"-Dylan Thomas.
He's calling me in ten minutes. I am so in love. Thank you, God. Thank you so so much.
The seasons took all they had come for
Now winter dances here
It seems so fitting, don't you think
Do dress the ground in white
and grey... -lyrics from "Beloved" by VNV Nation, an excellent song. They have quite a few of those. I like them.
Today was my first contact visit with Chris! I found out last night on the phone that I was approved, which only took three weeks instead of the assumed 6-8 (we both had a feeling it wouldn't take as long, and we were right!). GOD it was so wonderful to kiss him, to hold him tight, to feel him hold me, to smell him, to hold his hands, to buy him food that he really liked (since I visited during lunch, I was happy to use some change I had laying around to buy him from the vending machines: an egg roll, baked Doritos, Reese's peanut butter cups, and a strawberry cheese danish--very similar to the kinds of food we'd pick up at the corner gas station), so nice to share food with him and be so grateful to me, to see him smile so adorably boyishly charming, to talk to him face-to-face for three hours, to watch him stare blatantly at my body and remark on what he wished, very vehemently, he could do to me, right then and there, to glance down and see hard evidence (pun intended) of just how prominent that longing was...and I get to see him again on Friday!
Kids, life is good. We are now truly on easy street. Or at least we really will be when winter break starts in a week and a half. I'm so happy and relieved and just oh my God. *happy sigh* I got to sing to him and everything, and it almost made him cry, he's so fucking adorable. I have the best fiancee in the world, I don't give a FUCK what anyone else thinks. He's the only one for me in this entire world, and he's mine mine MINE, forever and ever, till death do us part. And, even then, "Though lovers be lost, love shalt not, and death shall have no dominion"-Dylan Thomas.
He's calling me in ten minutes. I am so in love. Thank you, God. Thank you so so much.