I wear a ring on my left hand...
I don't want to think anymore and I can't seem to escape the things that seem to just kill me the most. It's like they just don't quit and it's like, no matter how hard I try...it doesn't ever seem to make a difference. People are ruining things without even trying, and that's not really alright with me. It's everywhere, in every conversation in every thought and in everything I seem to see. I've got so much running through my head, so many things that are so personal and so dear to me. I hate them all now... not people.. just things, events, times, etc. I want to be happy and relaxed. Everything is such a blur and I want it all to stop. I want to be loved and to lay in bed with a tight hold around me. I want a cup of cocoa with a blanket and a good movie. I want to sit and just cry. I wish I could just escape me and my mind sometimes because I hate the thoughts that run through it. Why can't people just stop when they know it starts to hurt? I feel it and it hurts...so stop. I wear a ring on my left hand that symbolizes forever.