I know this hurts - it was meant to.
I'm in a pretty good mood for spending a bunch of my life in the hospital this week. Maybe it's because I'm home. Maybe it's the vicodin. Who knows.
Criss Angel. Just because. Yumm.
TEN WHAT'S
1. What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?
omg, its already 9 pm?
(vicodin = sleepytime)
2. What did you do last night?
haha. stayed in the hospital.
3. What is the most important part of your life?
familia. friends. God. music.
4. What would you rather be doing right now?
nothing really. im content.
5. What did you last cry over?
when i had my IVs taken out this morning.
6. What always makes you feel better when you're upset?
talking to someone. but i dont have anyone.
7. What are your plans tomorrow?
going to register for classes. then work.
8. What's the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
support. attention. affection.
9. What are you worried about?
college.
10. What are you looking forward to most in this week?
the weekend.
NINE HAVE-YOU-EVER'S
1. Have you ever liked someone with a girlfriend/boyfriend?
yeah.
2. Have you ever had your heart broken?
tons of times. 3 x major.
3. Have you ever had sex in a public place?
maybe. haha.
4.Have you ever been out of the country?
nope.
5. Have you ever backstabbed a friend?
no.
6. Have you ever been backstabbed by a friend?
they were no friend.
7. Have you ever had the cops called on you?
no but we thought so.
8. Have you ever dated someone younger then you?
only for a week, but i wouldnt count that.
9. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
yes! <3
EIGHT WHO'S
1. Who was the last person you saw?
mommeh.
2. Who was the last person you kissed?
mommeh.
3. Who was the last person you called?
brian.
4. Who was the last person to call you?
pheabus.
5. Who was your first crush?
joe.
6. Who is the last person to text you?
muffin.
7.Who is the last person you texted?
muffin.
8. Who did you last yell at?
haha. mom before i went to the ER.
SEVEN WHEN'S
1. When was your last nap?
naps make me grumpy.
2. When did you last see your mom?
half hour ago?
3. When was your last hug?
its been a while.
4.when did you last dress up?
paps funeral. =[
5. When was the last time you cried?
this morning. i hate hospitals.
6. When did you last go to the movies?
last week.
SIX WHERE'S
1. Where do your best friend(s) live
OHIO. pa. h-town.
2. Where did you last go?
walmart. to get the vicodin. haha.
3. Where did you last hang out?
home.
4. Where do you go to school?
cshs. hbc. soon to be hcc.
5. Where is your favorite place to be?
home.
6. Where did you sleep last night?
the hospital. boohiss.
FIVE DO'S/DOES
1. Do you like someone right now?
yeah.
2. Do they know it?
yeah...
3. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
sometimes.
4. Do you know the muffin man?
he lives on drury lane.
5. Does the future scare you?
sometimes.
FOUR WHY'S
1.why are you friends with your best friends?
because they are there for me. no matter what.
2. Why did you get a myspace?
keeping in touch with high school friends.
3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?
cause mom liked it.
4. why are you doing this survey?
filling up space. calming boredom.
THREE IF'S
1. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
to know what people were thinking.
2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
YES.
3. If you were stranded on a desert island and could bring one thing what would it be?
cellphone.
TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER'S
1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex's if they asked you ?
maybe.
2. Would you ever shave your head to save the person you love?
yes. id do anything for them.
ONE LAST QUESTION?
Is it just me, or is Aesop Rock really, really good?
nope, its just you. idk what that even is.
But really, that had to have been the lamest thing thats happened to me in a while now. The pain just got way too unbearable. I was having a really rough time at work, because the last two batches of reprints I had done at work the night before came back to us the next night. I called Brian, because I was upset. It's hard to learn something I had no idea about in a week. Especially since the shift they're making me work for training is 7 pm - 4 am. I'm too tired to concentrate most of the time, and it makes my stomach hurt staying up that late. Shirley said I should just go take my break and call Brian. I thought that was a good idea, too.
He was pretty ignorant about the whole thing. I was really stressed out and couldn't take it. I needed him more than anything, and I guess I should have known better, because he was going to be grumpy at 9 pm. I sort of asked for it, but I had to try. At any rate, the stress was making everything hurt worse. By the time I got back inside, I started bawling. Shirley hugged me and told me to go to the hospital.
I had to leave work early for the 16434th time now, and I had to have mom take me to the hospital. Brian met us there, which was nice, but confusing. The whole time he was whining because he wanted me to go to the Chambersburg hospital. That was annoying. I didn't want to go that far away. It's out of state, and I know I would have been seen faster, because his dad is better known up there, but I didn't care. I was petrified, and I wanted to go to the hospital that was closest.
In the end, we went to Washington County, of course. It took a little persuasion to get mom to drive me, but in the end, she was there for me. Like always. I love her so much.
Brian met us there. I'm not sure why he'd sit there with me for that long (he never left) if he doesn't care about me anymore. He's just so confusing! But it was good for us, I think. He did complain some, about how if people knew who his dad was, everything would be so much better, but it was okay. It would have been cool to have special treatment, but I was too paranoid to care. I was fine with what I got.
So after 31564654 tests, tons of blood work, IVs everywhere, and lots of waiting, the doctor finally comes back. *surprise* I have endometriosis. WOW. I'm kind of upset because nothing was really done. I was given painkillers that will prolly last me the rest of my life, but nothing else. (I'm sure the bill will be great, though.)
I'm terrified to admit it, but I can't wait until I can get this surgery. I want to feel better and be better. Not just take painkillers and still be messed up inside.
argh.
I'm pretty, but I'm not beautiful.
I sin, but I'm not the devil.
I'm good, but I'm not an angel.
~ Marilyn Monroe