swimming...dating...
"You can't just jump back in. I'm not a bloody swimming pool and I can't do it...it'll hurt...and I can't do it.."
Emma Thompson "Last Chance Harvey."
And here I am. Dipping my toe back in.
I have a new boyfriend. He's lovely. He's older than me. (30. My goodness, am I old enough to be dating someone in his 30's and it not being weird?)
I have this voice in my head questioning and second guessing everything I say. Or everything he says. Or does. Or every minute he's late. Or doesn't text. And I have another voice screaming "STOP BEING STUPID HE'S NOT TRYING TO HURT YOU HE'S TRYING TO DATE YOU!!!!"
The second voice is louder, so I'm listening to it more. I'm also feeding it chocolate, as I'm pretty sure that's what it likes.
So, for now, I'm just going to try and enjoy it.
I want to say more...but I think I'll just let it lie there.
I'm happy. But cautiously so. Happy cautious. We'll go with that.
...but he likes to go on adventures...and try new foods...and when I got back from my family trip to Germany(another entry that I will eventually have the time to write...theater and working full time make life hard) he brought me flowers, just to welcome me back.
*happy sigh*
..."won't it be hard to be happy like we always thought we're supposed to feel, but never seemed to be..."
-Caitlin
Emma Thompson "Last Chance Harvey."
And here I am. Dipping my toe back in.
I have a new boyfriend. He's lovely. He's older than me. (30. My goodness, am I old enough to be dating someone in his 30's and it not being weird?)
I have this voice in my head questioning and second guessing everything I say. Or everything he says. Or does. Or every minute he's late. Or doesn't text. And I have another voice screaming "STOP BEING STUPID HE'S NOT TRYING TO HURT YOU HE'S TRYING TO DATE YOU!!!!"
The second voice is louder, so I'm listening to it more. I'm also feeding it chocolate, as I'm pretty sure that's what it likes.
So, for now, I'm just going to try and enjoy it.
I want to say more...but I think I'll just let it lie there.
I'm happy. But cautiously so. Happy cautious. We'll go with that.
...but he likes to go on adventures...and try new foods...and when I got back from my family trip to Germany(another entry that I will eventually have the time to write...theater and working full time make life hard) he brought me flowers, just to welcome me back.
*happy sigh*
..."won't it be hard to be happy like we always thought we're supposed to feel, but never seemed to be..."
-Caitlin