The words of others...
Sad..
Someone said to me today..
“You don’t know how it feels to have a parent leave you for weeks at a time. Do you think it makes you feel wanted?”
(thats not the exact words...)
Sure I sat and cried for a while. But it really made me think. I feel like my life was one big mistake. Yeah you’re right I don’t know what its like to have a parent leave for weeks at a time. I don’t have parents.
• I don’t have a father. I haven’t ever met the guy before.
• I have a grandfather who goes places and doesn’t claim me.
• I have a mother but she’s gone. She’s only here a couple days out of a year. I have to watch her come and then a couple days later. I stand back holding all my pain and sorrow in and watch her board a plane and leave me again.
• I have a grandmother that praises her dogs and has more important things to do then be with me.. (That’s how I feel anyways)
It hurt when I was told that I don’t know how it feels. It hurt because I do happen to know how it feels..
I know how it feels to not be wanted. I know what it feels like to have no one around and to feel alone. I know what its like to cry yourself to sleep EVERY night.. I know what its like to strive for attention and never get it. I know what it feels like to have people around you and still feel alone..
There’s one person that keeps my head up and keeps me happy. He makes me feel complete. I love you Max!
I just need more time with you..
Someone said to me today..
“You don’t know how it feels to have a parent leave you for weeks at a time. Do you think it makes you feel wanted?”
(thats not the exact words...)
Sure I sat and cried for a while. But it really made me think. I feel like my life was one big mistake. Yeah you’re right I don’t know what its like to have a parent leave for weeks at a time. I don’t have parents.
• I don’t have a father. I haven’t ever met the guy before.
• I have a grandfather who goes places and doesn’t claim me.
• I have a mother but she’s gone. She’s only here a couple days out of a year. I have to watch her come and then a couple days later. I stand back holding all my pain and sorrow in and watch her board a plane and leave me again.
• I have a grandmother that praises her dogs and has more important things to do then be with me.. (That’s how I feel anyways)
It hurt when I was told that I don’t know how it feels. It hurt because I do happen to know how it feels..
I know how it feels to not be wanted. I know what it feels like to have no one around and to feel alone. I know what its like to cry yourself to sleep EVERY night.. I know what its like to strive for attention and never get it. I know what it feels like to have people around you and still feel alone..
There’s one person that keeps my head up and keeps me happy. He makes me feel complete. I love you Max!
I just need more time with you..