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Well this is how my holiday Rosh Shashana went :
.how great.and so well its the only time our family actually gets together.and that pisses me off.i hate it so much.it bothers me more than anything.well for a really long time, actually for a few years.i'v been holding it how much it really bothers me that they dont care about me, and how they never spend any time with me.and so i told them while we were eating.after my g-ma if thats what i can call her.said a tost about "family" i was like um.. what family. i dont see a family here, do you.and then it started. i was like you never spend anytime with me, nothing, never to my uncle,g-ma and g-pa.and they started yelling.b/c they know they are wrong.they never do. i mean i NEVER ask them for anything.i dont need anything from them.all i ask is for them to spend some time with me, get to know me.but no they can't even do that for me.nothing. sometimes i feel like the only time they know i exsist is on my b-day.oh look, our grand daughter, she's alive.thanks.and then so they get really fed up and my uncle starts to defend them like why i dont call.and its like yo, i do and when ever i do they just say they are busy.bull fcuking shit.god.seriously.im not an idiot.and they yell on and on,b/c they have nothing to say. they know they are wrong.and it bothers me.so i told them.all how i felt.and then i get told, "look what you've done, know the whole year is going to be like this" well first of all its been like this forever.so i dont see why it should change all of a sudden know.it wont.they dont care.and to tell you the truth, i dont need them.i mean, i know i do deep inside.but they havent contributed to my life, so i dont see whats the difference with them or with out.
and then my g-pa started to choke, and the cops came.how great.he's better.but just to make things worse.
i need a friend right now.
and today::sunday i just chilled at home.it was alright.STUDied b/c my teachers dont care about any holidays.but then i went to see the movie DUPLEX that was hilarious.i say you go out and watch it.
xoxJane
.how great.and so well its the only time our family actually gets together.and that pisses me off.i hate it so much.it bothers me more than anything.well for a really long time, actually for a few years.i'v been holding it how much it really bothers me that they dont care about me, and how they never spend any time with me.and so i told them while we were eating.after my g-ma if thats what i can call her.said a tost about "family" i was like um.. what family. i dont see a family here, do you.and then it started. i was like you never spend anytime with me, nothing, never to my uncle,g-ma and g-pa.and they started yelling.b/c they know they are wrong.they never do. i mean i NEVER ask them for anything.i dont need anything from them.all i ask is for them to spend some time with me, get to know me.but no they can't even do that for me.nothing. sometimes i feel like the only time they know i exsist is on my b-day.oh look, our grand daughter, she's alive.thanks.and then so they get really fed up and my uncle starts to defend them like why i dont call.and its like yo, i do and when ever i do they just say they are busy.bull fcuking shit.god.seriously.im not an idiot.and they yell on and on,b/c they have nothing to say. they know they are wrong.and it bothers me.so i told them.all how i felt.and then i get told, "look what you've done, know the whole year is going to be like this" well first of all its been like this forever.so i dont see why it should change all of a sudden know.it wont.they dont care.and to tell you the truth, i dont need them.i mean, i know i do deep inside.but they havent contributed to my life, so i dont see whats the difference with them or with out.
and then my g-pa started to choke, and the cops came.how great.he's better.but just to make things worse.
i need a friend right now.
and today::sunday i just chilled at home.it was alright.STUDied b/c my teachers dont care about any holidays.but then i went to see the movie DUPLEX that was hilarious.i say you go out and watch it.
xoxJane