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why can't it be about opening yourself up to another person? it shouldnt be just about sex and flirtations, there should be a deeper connection than there is. why isn't it more ovious?
and why is it that awesome connections with people are charged just enough to make you curious, but never curious enough to risk finding out how they ultimately feel? probably because i already know the answer to the question. i just know i don't feel like hearing no, but in a way i don't think i want to hear yes.
glad i'm so decisive.
fuck how shitty the past year has gone for me. fuck you for dragging me around. glad i havent heard from you in 3 months. that's great.
fuck you for turning your back on me, stupid asshole. your problems arent my fucking fault, so don't put the blame on me. be a fucking man and talk to me, you don't always have to be a pussy.
fuck you for everything. i hope the two of you float off into paradise together. im better, and happier so please don't think you've wont this.
and fuck everyone else that has bothered to turn on me. you couldn't have been that important if i'm surviving without you.
this has been a merry chritmas update from deanna.
and why is it that awesome connections with people are charged just enough to make you curious, but never curious enough to risk finding out how they ultimately feel? probably because i already know the answer to the question. i just know i don't feel like hearing no, but in a way i don't think i want to hear yes.
glad i'm so decisive.
fuck how shitty the past year has gone for me. fuck you for dragging me around. glad i havent heard from you in 3 months. that's great.
fuck you for turning your back on me, stupid asshole. your problems arent my fucking fault, so don't put the blame on me. be a fucking man and talk to me, you don't always have to be a pussy.
fuck you for everything. i hope the two of you float off into paradise together. im better, and happier so please don't think you've wont this.
and fuck everyone else that has bothered to turn on me. you couldn't have been that important if i'm surviving without you.
this has been a merry chritmas update from deanna.