Some Serious Thinking...

[purebloodsrule]

Draco leaves the house, closing the door gently behind him. Lifting his head up, he lets the rain fall down on his face and lets out a shaky breath.

Mindful of the kitchen window, he walks farther into the yard and out of its view.

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[snake_charmer_]

~Pansy drapes the raincoat over her head and walks out towards Draco. She places her hand lightly on his shoulder. She doesn't want to intrude, but she wants him to know that she's there if he needs her.~

[purebloodsrule]

~Draco sighs and leans into her touch. He fights with himself to keep his voice steady as he says,
Why am I just finding out now?

[snake_charmer_]

~Oblivious to the rain, Pansy lays her head on Draco's shoulder.~

I don't know, love.

[purebloodsrule]

~Draco turns around and takes Pansy into his arms, bending down to lay his forehead on her shoulder.~
Why now? We're stuck in here, no mediwizard to cast the spell...

~He lifts his head~
You don't know it, do you? I... I want to know...

[snake_charmer_]

No, I don't know that spell. Perhaps someone else does.

~She pauses and carefully considers her words.~

Do you really want to know, Draco? It seems to me that not knowing might be better.

[purebloodsrule]

How?

~Draco lifts his head and stares at Pansy. The raincoat has kept most of the water from her head, but a bit has dripped down on her cheek and he runs his fingers along the silvery trail.~

How could not knowing be better?

[snake_charmer_]

~Pansy smiles slightly when he touches her face.~

You are your own man, Draco. Who you are won't change no matter who your father is.

~Pansy runs her fingers through her hair as she searches for the right words. The hood slips from her head.~

If you don't know, you don't owe anything to either one of them and neither one of them owes anything to you. It's the freedom you've always wanted.

[purebloodsrule]

Maybe. But then... if I don't know, I'm just in the dark. I'm not in control of anything... I need...

~Draco shakes his head slightly.~

Maybe you're right. I can't change it... it won't change anything, anyway...

But I want to know, Pansy. But not if Unc-
~he stops. Could he even call him that anymore? What if... He shakes himself and continues,~
Not if it makes Severus think he owes me something. I don't want that, I don't want him to be obliged to me. Not to some selfish, shallow...

~he trails off, scowling~

[snake_charmer_]

Stop. You're not selfish or shallow. And you are in control of this situation. You know what the possibilities are and the decision on how and when to proceed is yours.

[purebloodsrule]

Well, my godfath- or maybe father seems to think so.

~sighs~

I don't know why his opinion of me matters more than my fathe- than Lucius'. It always has, though. I wish... I don't know. I don't know what I want. I think... I think for now you're right. I'll wait and see... see what happens. Maybe it's best if I don't find out right now.

~Draco touches Pansy's cheek, the rainwater making the soft skin slippery smooth. Suddenly, he begins to laugh~
Merlin - I must be in shock - I forgot we had our wands!

~Pulling out his wand, he waves it and murmurs an incantation. The rain now falls to either side of them, diverted by an invisible umbrella.~

[snake_charmer_]

I have a better idea.

~Pansy smiles and waves her wand. The rain is pouring on them once again, but instead cold downpour, it is a warm shower. She shrugs her raincoat off her shoulders and pulls Draco into a deep kiss.~

[purebloodsrule]

~Draco responds eagerly, her warm lips helping him forget his dilemma. Pushing off his own raincoat, he moves his lips to her neck and collar, pushing the sodden cloth of her robes down to open a path for his mouth.

~Suddenly he straightens and looks around. They can still be seen by anyone that pokes their head outside the door. But he knows somewhere that's a little more private. Grabbing Pansy's hand, he waves his wand so that the warm shower follows them as he leads her behind the chicken coop.~

Big Wizard is watching...

[diary_wizard]

Would all housemates please return inside due to harsh weather.

Thank you.

Re: Big Wizard is watching...

[purebloodsrule]

~Draco glares around and adjusts his robes. He yells out,
You're just lucky we'd already finished!

Come on, love.

Bloody Big Wizard. Poking its nose... or whatever... everywhere...

~Putting an arm around Pansy, he once again casts the umbrella charm and they return to the house

Big Wizard is watching... yeah, I bet it is... fucking pervert...