Why do I get involved...???
Fuck this... this whole relationship shit doesnt seem to be workin out the way i planned but hey its all good... I dont know why im so attached or why im so crazy about her its just insane the way i feel... i mean i havent even gone out with her and it feels like ive lost her. Well i guess she doesnt wannna relationship and i dont really wanna wait around but i dont wanna give up... so WHAT THE FUCK am I supposed to do im stuck, trapped, fucked basically there is no other way to put it... I havent felt this way about anyone is soooo long.. i just know its meant to be but shes not havin it... I dont know what im gonna have to do i mean shit... You'd think the last thing i need to deal with right now is a gf but its just the opposite i mean as much as i wanna say i love her i cant caus i dont but thats what it feels like right now i cant get her outta my head and i cant stop thinkin about her... Worse comes to Worse its not meant to be and it wont happen i mean i can deal with that... But I really want all this to work out all this suspension/expulsion doesnt seem like shit compared to this i know its crazy but thats how i feel but what can ya do... That settles that...On another note i just wanna apologize to anyone who read my last entry... It wasnt right i never shoulda done it and it got me in a lot of shit so i just wanna apologize to anyone who read it... Its still there though and its gonna continue to stay there... One more thing FUCK YOU... Dont wanna mention names wouldnt want anymore GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKIN CHARGES AGAINST ME!!!!