love is only seen through a blind eye, and mine arent blind.

[pure_ecstasy9]

sometimes i wish i could sit here and be like everyone else and say how much i love my boyfriend or whoever. but in the long run it just doesnt seem worth it. i would love to find the person that is right for me and be with them and be happy, but it wont happen, i would even like to find someone that i just have a good time with, but thats not happening either. when i write on this journal, i do it for me, not to get other peoples approval. I was talking to Mel last night and she finally made me realize how much i really do miss having "boyfriend feelings." everyone keeps saying its because im looking in the wrong places, but i try not to look..i have my own reasons why. I cant rely on anyone that comes to me and says they want to be with me, because they dont, they just want to "use" me. Oh well if i keep trying something is bound to happen, if not then thats just how its meant to be.

I have to work today at 4 and i get out at 10. im tired..i can only imagine how im going to feel later on. im not working on friday night though which is great..i work sat night..sundays easter so i get that off.

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heading out.