Building under bad habits vs. knocking them down
Many bad habits, most of which sprung up in response to dealing with the "On Doing Badly" stuff, need to be reduced or eliminated from my life now, in order to proceed.
I think I'm going to choose to focus on replacing them with good things, rather than on restricting them. They're there for a reason - in response to feelings of worthlessness, stress, and failure - and while they're not supporting me in a sustainable way, they are, in their way, a type of self-care. Rather than knock out the poor struts I have under some parts of my self, I think I'll try to build better ones and let the old ones become less used as they're less needed.
(Related to this is this awesome TED talk, "Everything you know about addiction is wrong" - if you haven't seen it, I super highly recommend.)
Tangentially, I'm nervous af about my sleep schedule. My first week of work involves a huge dose of travel (including huge amounts of jet-lag), and then I'll land back into a massive amount of work needing done - which hopefully will coincide with my setting up a good napping-place at work, and being nice and strict about getting my naps overall. But stress and getting my naps don't always play well together, so I'm worried as heck. Wish me luck.
Happy weekend, ya'll!
Originally published at counterclockwise. You can comment here or there.